Dad called again, pushing for me to come home ASAP, was pretty clear why this time, he has a meeting with his barrister friends brother who is a solicitor other legal professional on Wednesday, he probably wants me there. He was still trying to get me to be able to sit my exams, told him it was too late for that, couldn’t be bothered to explain that the university was a private institution and could do whatever they wanted, though I may be wrong as he has apparently been advised by his friend, who might I add he isn’t paying, so I don’t feel too bad about him wasting his time with this shit, just agitated that he is also wasting my time by calling me. I gave up on getting back into university, at least until the disciplinary hearing, I gave up on my anger on being mistreated, I hate that my father is dragging it all back up again, I was at peace. Though if we really do have a case, I would love to be able to stick it to the university, I do hate that I have lost a year of my life and they will likely charge me another years tuition fees, my anger is really just postponed if anything.
Started masturbating before sleeping again, hurt my wrist, videos don’t load very well on this tablet.
Ate cookies with warm milk for dinner and a jacket potato for lunch, need to buy bread. Was raining today, I should have gone out. Felt very cosy inside though.
Someone hit our number on the intercom, male roommate got it as usual, worried as I thought it might be the police but it turned out it was a pizza delivery guy, I overheard the conversation, he hasn’t ordered it and said he would check if anyone else here had. He knocked on my door and the sound made me panic like always, not sure what it is, maybe I associate the sound with negative emotions or maybe it’s the sharp sudden noise punctuating the usual silence. I answered without opening the door or letting him ask the question “It wasn’t me !” I bellowed, very proud of myself, very natural and avoiding a tough situation.
Watched some JoJo and the Mayweather-Pacquiao fight, I’m a boxing fan so I wasn’t particularly excited for it, result and the way the fight would go was obvious.
I like to be able wake up early so I can shower beforenthe police potentially show up, mornings are always quite tense for me these days, very uncomfortable living in constant anticipation.