Applied to a few jobs today. Handed one CV in person, went to another store and asked for an application form. They aahd run out and asked me to return in 10 minutes. I did not bother going back as I knew I would have a hard time beating anyone in direct competition. I was reminded that although I may have applied for around 10 jobs than I was probably competing with 100+ people for those jobs, this was a bit of a knock on my confidence.
Went to the job centre to use the computers there as the library is closed on Fridays. Applied to 6 jobs at B&Q, felt like I was bound to get an interview due to the volume of vacancies. Unfortunately I received 6 rejection emails around 10 minutes after having completed the last application, I had failed the “what would you do in this situation” questionaire. Another knock. There was a Pole in the job centre who barely spoke the language getting help on how to claim benefits, various scum assembled, a guy who had just gotten out of jail complaining about being due 3 weeks of incapacity benefits. I feel I can at least look down on these people as I have not yet claimed benefits, gone to jail and know the language.
Still three more places I know are open to applications and B&Q is worth another go at some point but I’m running out of steam. The high I was on after working at McDonalds is ending, I think will receed into the more traditional NEET lifestyle next week.
I can be happy and somewhat relaxed for a short period while I assume my current applications are still being processed and have not been outright rejected.
Caught up on Game of Thrones and bought some Pepsi.
My little sisters pet died, it had been diagnosed with a tumour or something, they were told it was in pain, it was inhumane to keep it alive. It was put down today. I didn’t like the creature but I now feel bad for it and I feel bad for my sisters who are likely now hurting. My mother called me and wanted me to speak to them, they were making a PowerPoint for it, seemed in good spirits, it us unusual for this family to express emotions. I told them to hug each other and said what I thought I should in the situation, they found it all amusing.
There have been a lot more comments than usual being posted recently. Thanks for the support but if you a question, just phrase it directly don’t feel the need for tact.
Pretty poetic that this blog is now being read by people who I have little familiarity with in the real world. My whole ordeal started when nobody knew me or shared to know me but I was obsessed with learning more about them. Now the situation has been reversed and they all want to know me and what I have been doing/thinking recently. The difference is that this blog is open to them, unlike other forms of social media where you can pick and choose who you allow to enter your life.