Not sure why this still needs to exist as I can’t write about the most joyous thing I did today. Not too happy I felt I needed to do it, I’ve seen a few crime shows and it’s a bad move considering the game being played and evidence of mental disorders.
Went into town to pic up my new glasses, the lens are large, it’s nice to be able to see more but I think I look a little weird. Think I got scammed on the lens thinning thing, one lens is thicker than the other. Went to the GP and booked an appointment to get some antianxiety meds. The receptionist was nice, asked if I also had a problem with depression and that I could try the pharmacy if I needed something sooner. My appointment is on the 15th. Plan on going home on the 16th. Think it will be difficult to convince the doctor I need anxiety medication as I’m feeling very together these days.
Figured out why I’m pissed at my dad. When I dropped out of university the first time, first year Chemical Engineering (95+% of the class were Asian, there was clearly something wrong, that and I failed a couple of modules but it was a shit course, no doubt), my dad was angry at me. I didn’t tell him I failed, I told him In was choosing to drop out because the course was not a good fit for me. It was uncomfortable to be around him after that, I left and then re-enrolled a year later, my dad was all smiles and sunshine again. The idiot thinks getting a degree is still some sort of accomplishment.
Now that my studies have seemingly come to an end again, he is not angry at me, he is very understanding, too understanding, it doesn’t make sense, this time I am truly at fault and deserve to be chewed out a little. Yesterday he told me to come back, take a year off and contemplate what I want to do with my life, whether it be continuing my studies or something else. All I can think is that it’s the same as the situation with the Polish girl, I don’t know why people think, feel and act the way they do but I do know that people are different and I have to accept their emotions as being valid even if I don’t understand them.
Neither of my roommates were present today, don’t know what’s up with that.
Got an email from the McDonalds guy (it’s signed by him but sent before 7am), said I should expect my money soon. Bit sooner than he said, I wonder what prompted this? I like to think he realised how out of line his behaviour was.