Go Away

Someone suggested I look into getting a CSCS card so I can try taking on jobs as a labourer. It’s a little expensive, £150 or so when all is said and done, think I might go for it. You get a card to show off your qualification, I like that, would feel quite smug about having one. I feel working as a labourer is more respectable that working retail though the work is even more saturated by Poles but at least it’s Polish men and not women. Not really motivated to get a job, the CSCS card is more of a distraction, an excuse to put off looking for a job a while longer if I’m honest.

Heard my roommates talking about me, nothing malicious but I didn’t like their tone, felt some less pleasant stuff was being implied too but I’m not sure. Still no fucking idea why it’s okay for the Chinese guys parents to be here and when they’re fucking off. Will probably be more relaxed living here when they’re gone, there is always someone in the kitchen and I can always hear someone talking.

Looking through some Facebook pics (not a witness in my upcoming trial etc., nothing to worry about  detective), some real candid shit, intimate even, these normies don’t think anything of putting themselves in these situations and sharing the experiences. Always makes me feel more depressed than anything while going through peoples pics, on the verge of tears infact, it’s nothing personal, just resentment against normies is general about how they’re experiencing on a daily basis feels and worlds I’ll never know.