Met my solicitor again, he let me go over the statements in private, it was a few minutes before I realised the gift he had given me. I am grateful to him for that. Actually reading the statements I realise again that the charge relating to my ex-roommate is rubbish, it was not my apology email that scared her into the arms of the police but the fat friend of the Polish girl in my class who tried to sniff her out, spooking her by contacting her friends and asking questions about her.
Still pleading guilty though I was excited when I heard the victims would be made to testify in court. I would love to see them again, I’d claim to make some huge gesture for the privilege but I don’t have and can’t do anything worth a damn. Pleading guilty apparently knocks 2/3 off my sentence. However if I were to be given a community payback order the minimum is still 100 hours.
My financial situation isn’t great so I don’t want a fine. I need free time to work so I don’t want community service either. We do nothing more than plead, it’s entirely up to the judge, can’t ask for a short prison stint, it would be my preferred option. I don’t care much about the punishment, I want to plead guilty because of the timing, a decent window before the next academic year starts. Get my disciplinary stuff out of the way, apply to student finance, re-enrol, everything’s back to normal by the end of September.
Solicitor seems like a nice guy, don’t like he isn’t considering any arguments for my innocence but he does seem to care somewhat. He enquired about my motives, if he’d read the threads he’d know (later emailed to him), we settled on ‘obsession’ and anger the girls wouldn’t ‘have me on’, I tried to stress it wasn’t sexual and had to tell him again that the girls hadn’t rejected me.
Didn’t go into the meeting with any questions, not really thinking about the situation, not desperate for it to be over, to move on, just don’t want things to get any worse! I seem to have found a balance at the moment. Don’t feel anything related to this except a few rare flashes of anger.
Saw Chad in the morning, he’s going home for a week. Chinese Chad asked me to buy bus tickets for him, I know what he’s doing, you ask people for favours to make them think they’re on your side, if only he knew that I already liked him very much.
Played Hearthstone, 400 gold away from the final solo adventure wing. Chatted with a /brit/(feel) friend, didn’t realise it was him until after our interaction was over. He watched me play a game, found it intimidating, like when a teacher looks over my shoulder as I’m working, I wasn’t at my best either, was using a weak deck for a quest, probably thinks I suck worse than I do (I lost). As with all conversations I didn’t know what to say.
Pissed myself in the library again.
Body doesn’t hurt much anymore.
Ate cereal in the morning. At around 5.30pm I had beans on 4 slices of toast with 3 slices of cheese.