Weighed myself today, 146.5lbs, a new long and I feel as if it might be possible to get to 140lbs before the end of next week, I think I lost weight here due to a combination of loss of water weight from the first DNP run and the fat the current run is burning. Around 1000 calories today, just like yesterday, except I had more carbs, an experiment, since it’s not known for certain if it’s better to restrict calorie intake or to just eat normally but include more carbs since that forces the body to use up more energy when on DNP.
After 20-25 hours of Dragon Quest VII, I finally reached the point where I can choose vocations. Played quite a bit today while watching one football game in the background on the TV and then later just listening to one on the radio since I realised I wasn’t bothered with viewing the image much.
I’m still taking Cypro while I switch to Bica, thinking I’ll continue taking Cypro (25mg) alongside Bica for a month before coming off. At the end of the month, I’ll also start 8mg Progynova, it’s not unusual to go that high, easy enough to find others on that dose, just not going up right now since it’s better to increase gradually though I think this is still probably to quick an increase. Blood test after 1 month on 8mg.
Got the new Hearthstone priest hero. The Hearthstone end of season rewards were pretty decent, all cards that can be used in decks.
Had an altercation with my father, kept shouting “paki” at him after he told me to get a haircut again and called me a gypsy. My sisters intervened and said that I had dual British-Pakistani nationality, it had been set up when I was a kid, I’m distraught and will research how to correct this. Youngest sister took the England flag off my bedroom wall and hid it, she thought it was amusing though she also thinks it’s silly for me to have an England flag since she believes that England represents and ethnicity while the Union Jack represents the region. I wouldn’t pin the flag of the UK to my wall because I am not fond of Scotland nor do I really care about any other part of the nation that isn’t England.
Human Garbage 
Of course you’re a Paki
You were boasting about your £200k house in the thread tonight.
That’s the most Paki thing I’ve ever seen. You’re just like your dad, bragging about meagre amounts of money as if it’s a lot. The “rich” taxi driver and the NEET who thinks that 200k is a lot for a house and thinks having six grand in the bank is an achievement. You really have his genes. Like father, like son.
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That wasn’t me, it was an imposter, I couldn’t correct him because I got banned again.
So that makes the rest of your post null and void.
Though regarding the money I have in the bank, that’s more of a NEET culture thing, bragging about whatever money we have since we didn’t have to work for it.
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You worked for it. You maybe didn’t have a job, but trust me, you worked for it. I wouldn’t live a year of your life for 500k let alone 6k
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Poleaboo your racial inferiority complex is just depressing. It says a lot that the first insult you throw out is paki, you hate yourself so much then wonder why life is difficult.
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I might hate myself but I don’t think I hate myself for being a paki or at least there are several other reasons that would outweigh it e.g. having poor social skills, not becoming “enlightened” earlier in my life, not transitioning at a younger age etc.
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Do you wish you were white?
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It would be pretty pathetic if I said “yes”.
I don’t think it’s that simple, for starters I’d rather be a paki female than a white male, being trans is my main issue when it comes to those kinds of issues.
Being white though, it would preferable, I’m sure everyone feels that way.
Why would I prefer to be white though? Maybe it’s a social thing, I often feel conscious of being a paki and assume people make assumptions and quick judgement because I do the same to other pakis.
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Do you hate “Pakis” as a race, culture or nationality?
No doubt you are a Brit culturally but you can’t turn your back on your kinsfolk can you?
Do you have any Pakistani role models, like Imran Khan or Wasim Akram?
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I’m not a racist or into politics so I don’t hate them as a race or nationality, it’s a culture thing.
I assume I hate most the pakis in Pakistan and over here. I’ve said it before, I hate the way they behave, the way they talk and the values they have.
They’re not my kinsfolk, they are nothing to me and I am an individual. My kinsfolk are those who share similarities with me that go deeper than race.
Imran Khan, I guess is a pretty cool guy and I wouldn’t call him a paki. I don’t have any role models though, I don’t idolise anyone, it upsets me to see people who I am envious of to the point I would like to be like them.
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Right, Imran Khan isn’t a Paki, he’s just a cool dude who is from Pakistan.
their are lots of worthless scum from my country too (australia) and I know for a fact there are plenty of subhuman chavs in the UK too. Don’t let them define you bro
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I’m sorry but you will never be a white woman.
Please stop hating yourself, you may have destroyed your fertility but you can still save your life if you give up the trans gimmick.
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I told you, I know I am going to end myself, my life is terrible and I would be a glutton for punishment if I let it continue past a certain point.
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I don’t want you to kill yourself and I encourage you not to, but, just out of interest, what would it take to push you over the edge?
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Running out of moves/options
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