Not heard back from the uni, guess I can assume the best until it actually happens. I was prepared on Wednesday and I’ll steel myself again when the decision comes in. Not feeling suicidal right now but I imagine it will hit again when everything is final and I’ll be forced to make a decision.
Down to 143.5lbs, wonderful and surprising, what I heard about DNP water weight was true but it’s strange that I lost weight while eating so poorly these last few days. Sister said I lost weight from my face, this is upsetting, it’s the last area really I want to be losing it.
Driving lesson went poorly, just a few things here and there that I forgot.
Tried sitting down with the family for a bit, I won’t miss them and I don’t think they’ll miss me either.
Finasteride is maybe working, could just be my imagination but the hairline seems to be making a recovery.
Laser patch test tomorrow, nervous due to the awkward email exchanges and it’s so soon after other events, I need significant prep time before anything, this is all really going to throw me of balance when/if I see the GP on Monday.
Applied to 2 jobs, admin and warehouse. There were a lot of retail jobs advertised but I know I have no chance with those. Not expecting anything, been burned enough.
Feeling fatigued, painful to walk.
Detective didn’t call, don’t care, I didn’t want to talk to him anymore either.