Woke up around 10am today, ate porridge. Sometime later in the day I went to the bank to ask for printouts of my bank balance, I needed them to send to the DWP who were asking for an update to my situation. Once I got out, I wanted to stay out, it was raining, I felt comfortable so I took a short walk further into town to CEX, took a very short browse of the video games, no intention to buy anything, then I left and went back home.
I was trying to restrict calories again today but I didn’t know what to replace my usual meals/snacks with so I ended up getting so hungry that I bought a takeaway, donner and chip. Felt disgusting afterwards and during, if I’m honest. Hopefully the damage won’t be excessive since the only other thing I ate today was a banana.
A kind anon on /r9k/ gave me a code for £15 on Battle.net, I bought 10x booster packs for £3.99. It’s the nicest thing anyone has done for me in a long time, so long I can’t remember anything kinder. I tried to express my gratitude but what could I say apart from “Thank you” repeatedly? He told me a little about himself, he’s 27, an ex-NEET and seems to have had a rough time of it until (repeated 3rd year of uni 3 time) he made it recently when someone got him a job, hard to determine though if it’s really hellish or really comfy (he has a 3am 500 mile drive). The only thing to really spend the rest of the cash on is an alternate hero (who I will probably never use), I’ll wait a while, see if a new one is released since I’m not crazy about any of the existing ones, I maybe prefer Alleria to Rexxar. It feels good to know there are such wonderful people in the world but it does not reinstate my faith in humanity, I know the bulk of them are much more like those I encountered during my time while studying (and on bail).
Went to ASDA, a classic night walk, bonus points since it was raining too. I can get used to this, walking definitely makes me feel better but buying something from the supermarket every day will surely strain my wallet. Today I bought I couple of tins of sardines (cheap protein), 8 tubs of Activia yogurt (discount was on) and a couple of other yogurts due to them having their prices cut. I dropped one of the yogurts since I chose not to collect a basket at the entrance, a woman picked it up for me, I thanked her, she responded. Another bit of kindness in this bleak existence. DNP cycle starts tomorrow, cutting the carbs out during that period outside of porridge since I think oats are the good kind of carbs.
The laser place got back to me yesterday, everything is fine, booked in for Saturday. Bica apparently increases photosensitivity though so I’m taking Cypro again but with Bicas long half life, I don’t think that makes a difference.
Big news today that got me excited was that I might be onto a job, it just sorta fell into my lap. I ended up on a lot of job websites mailing lists due to having applied to so many vacancies but I thought I had gotten them all into the spam filter but one slipped through yesterday, it was a recruitment agency and this was the first email I ever received from them, I guess they must have recently been sold my email address. It was for Xmas temp work, starting early November. I called them today, no answer, then I called them again 45 minutes later, got a response this time. They handed me over to some woman with an accent I couldn’t determine, didn’t seem like a nice one. Told me that they had 2 shifts, 2pm-10pm and 10pm-6am, they pay 7.70 for the night shift, 50p more will add up, no doubt..24 quid a week, 200 quid extra by the end of it if I go for the night shift if I work 2 months. That’s all I was really today, also 9.70 for working Saturdays (Mon-Sat shifts, 6 days working = more money). Bit of a problem though, I have to come in and register with them in a location that will take 2 trains to reach. I’m just waiting for a call from a colleague of the woman I spoke to, I’ll get details on the registration process, the call hasn’t come in today though, might call them again tomorrow.
I’m already fantasising about working there, I imagine myself much more chipper than I likely will be.
3 cups of green tea today. I love it, not the taste but having something warm to drink and it takes a while to consume, it’s comfy and takes me away from the hunger for a while.
Watched WWE Raw, Goldberg returned, it was underwhelming, thought he looked old and hence silly.
Gave myself a Sonic profile pic on my blog (I struggle to think of things that I like, it was either the autism mascot or the Man City logo), customising personal spaces is fun and there’s another element to it that I can’t quite describe, it makes me feel as if this is really mine and makes it feel like a real home. I decorated my bedroom with flags and a poster a short while ago too and today I also forged closer ties with my laptop by registering my email accounts with Windows 10 and setting up a calendar (After I put up the real stuff like laser, signing on and the DWP home visit, I added trivial stuff like UFC and WWE PPVs).
Sent an email to the women who conducted my misconduct hearing, it was just me laying down my logical arguments within the framework they had set up (again). I am certain they have decided to expel me so it can’t hurt to get a little extra defence in before it’s formalised.