My appeal was rejected, here’s what I was sent: https://poleaboo.files.wordpress.com/2016/11/final-expulsion.jpg?w=584
I’ll give credit to them for addressing all of the arguments I made, however they did not actually respond to my points sufficiently, everything was handwaved away with “my opinion trumps yours”. It is what it, I can’t get back into university now, that’s happened and I need to deal with it. I fucked up my life, my employment prospects are non-existent, this is my life now and there’s no possibility of it changing now.
It sucks, it really fucking sucks, I hate this situation, I hate all the people who did this to me and most of all I hate that I’m powerless to do anything about it. My only option seems to be to kill myself, that’ll end the pain, there’s no point in living if I’m not happy or serving a purpose but I’m conflicted, I don’t want to just kill myself, it torments me that a dozen or so people have abused me and they have gotten away with it, the only ones who know of the crimes they’ve committed are themselves and the few thousands of people who have read my blog. At this point all I want are two thing, 1) for my pain to end and 2) either the nation to know my story and/or for justice to be served.
I suppose if I want a shot at 2) my only realistic recourse would be to do something that makes the news, something like a very attention grabbing stunt at the uni, shit like Fathers for Justice used to do or those nudist feminists, some kind of protest.
Might take up the NHS on that mental health referral.
Thought today was going to be a good day, caught a Mareanie, one of the rarer Pokemon in the new game, it’s a female too so I could breed it without a ditto and do a giveaway.
My dad saw me without my shirt on, we had a conversation, he stared at my chest for a bit, he probably thinks my physical appearance is strange but he can’t make the leap to “tranny pills” so easily.
JSA payment not come through, they didn’t receive the last letter I sent in response to their demands for proof of my savings.