To clarify, week 1 is training in sales, week 2 is actually taking the phones and processing sales, the next 2 weeks are the same but for customer service. Next 3 months is actually performing work with weekly evaluations and is a probation period. The day was a bit of a blur, more power point and computer training for the bulk of the day, spent an hour watching someone actually taking calls, it’s far more helpful with regards to learning the job than anything else.
People tried talking to me but it made me feel uncomfortable and guilty, uncomfortable because it’s difficult to speak and know what to say, I felt guilty because they were trying to talk to me but it appeared I didn’t appreciate it. The Pokémon/DnD player spoke to me about Pokémon again but it’s hard to change the topic because I don’t know his other interests apart from DnD.
The other guy with what I assume are alt interests also tried speaking to me, he mentioned he saw me on a Pokémon site yesterday and today he saw me checking an anime chart out of boredom during break, he tried talking to me about anime but he was more up to date than me so I looked like an idiot, someone with causal interests at best even though he hadn’t seen Kaiji. I tried recommending Kaiji to him but I couldn’t find the words to sell it, tried comparing it to YuGiOh, I’m especially disappointed because I’ve fantasised about recommending Kaiji to people several times.
There was a group activity where I found it difficult to speak despite having things to say. I think the EUs also have difficulty speaking, I should try harder to interact with them, I’m sensing they’re trying.
Still taking my drugs, might ask a GP for some more.
I told my mum and sister about how I find it difficult to speak since they keep trying to get me to open up but I also noted how what they say isn’t helpful.