I feel strange, it’s not depression though I popped a Sertaline tablet last night, I just feel so out of it, detached from reality, I want to give up, stay at home, not even do anything, I know it’s safe and quiet here, free from obligations and expectations, no scary human interaction, just beautiful, wonderful nothingness.
Apart from the court dates I’m not sure why I even bother existing, there isn’t an endgame with this wageslaving, I can’t just quit and enjoy s NEET period repeatedly, I need to keep this nightmare up for the rest of my life.
Despite the strike I had no issues getting the train in or out.
Work was fine, there was this one fuck up, I was hesitant to report it because the guy addressing queries was one who I felt was a little mean, I waited a while and the query flag shifted over to the nicest man in the office, looks like LittleKuriboh, I can’t stress how nonthreatening and warm he is.
I forgot to pack lunch so bought a sandwich, still hungry though. Still around 140lbs.
My solicitor hasn’t replied to my emails or been in contract for over a month, sent another, my court date is next week.
TV is working again.
Rank 9 on Hearthstone.
Might go to sleep at 8pm.