For lunch I decided to get a sandwich in addition to my usual yoghurt and banana, Gregg’s was the place I chose, just pick off the shelf and pay. I thought the possibly eastern European cashier overcharged me and I angrily went back to confront her, we argued a little she insisted she charged me correctly and I claimed I only had so much change in my pocket but when pulling it out again I realised I fucked up, the cashier wasn’t aware and opened the till to pay me but I just fled, humiliated, there were a few customers in the shop. The explosion of anger must be caused by stresses at work, I was rude to a customer on the phone at the end of my shift too even though they were very nice.
The tranny/lesbian and I keep making awkward eye contact. Today I took her seat, she returned to her old one on another desk, the guy who kinda bullied me took my old seat, but he knew I gave it back to him, he knows I cucked him. Today however he was more polite but still I found it difficult to approach him with queries so I tried resolving my own issues. It’s just that he won’t acknowledge me and when I initiate conversation with him he always tells me to wait or that he’s busy in an aggravated tone.
I liked my new seating area for the most part, there were people around me but no one close, perfect, no one close enough to make me feel uncomfortable but not too far away that I feel isolated and alone.
Girl from my training group enquired about days I was working, she had to explain she was asking to swap a shift, I liked that she knew my name and pronounced it correctly but this was the only conversation we’ve ever had so I had to stop my self from becoming too flattered. I said “hmmm, pass” and went back to work, hope I also apologised.
I think I’m still eating 2000 calories or less, need to stop binging on biscuits.
Maybe I should start working on getting revenge.