Work was terrible, my login codes weren’t working so I had to go to a manager like a little kid and ask them to do stuff for me after every 5 calls or so. I found it stressful having to speak so to people so often. If my logins still arentr working the next time at work, I think I’m quitting. A guy tried speaking to me again, a student, he’s quirky, didn’t know how to respond.
I’ve tried photographing my face, my chin area looks terrible, I don’t know if it can get better or how, it might just be better to quit the transition and try anti-depressants. I look hideous, there are some flattering reflections but they’re not honest. A big decision to make tomorrow on whether or not to continue with laser. I’m going to take 100mg Sertaline tonight.
I’ll book another GP appointment tomorrow and just ask for the drugs. I can admit I’m too much of a coward to kill myself, I might as well lessen my suffering with pills, brainwash myself again, stop caring.