I ended up getting to work an hour early since I arrived at the train station expecting to take the bus again but to my surprise, the trains have begun running again. I tried killing a few minutes by window shopping but I couldn’t be bothered. At work I picked out a PC and then went back into the break room to play Hearthstone until my shift started.
When I returned to the work area, I was pleasantly surprised to find the transgender person sitting at the computer next to me and then I became less pleasantly surprised to learn my computer wasn’t working, so I had to move, after half an hour of trying and failing to find a working computer, I was approached and told that I’ll be on emails again. The woman speaking to me commented that I looked scared. I moved back to my original PC since I wouldn’t be needing to use the phone.
I thought I was special having been chosen to work emails but it turns out several people were taught emails before me, newer people, so insulting. Hurts that my manager lied to me.
During lunch is overheard some normie conversations, talking about GPs and politics. I felt I could have contributed but couldn’t find my voice. Maybe I should start taking beta blockers again, the antidepressants are just stopping me from caring. The conversation I overheard involved the trans person, LittleKuriboh and that guy I don’t like. Trans person sat near me during break, only one other person around, I couldn’t start a conversation.
Quirky guy spoke to me, I was accidentally rude. He asked when my shift ended, I said I was obviously on until 8pm as I wouldn’t be on break/lunch at 4pm otherwise.
Imagining conversations I could have again and the responses that could come.
Ate chicken at home and at work I had a yoghurt and banana.
My sister threatened to tell my mother about my gender dysphoria again. She’s genuinely angry at me due to my stance on religion