Last night and this morning, I tried masturbating but I was too exhausted. I need to do it soon, it’s almost been a week since last time.
I woke up early for my GP appointment, 9am, the doctor I saw this time was a young female, she was thin and attractive, this intimidated me a bit. She smiled a lot though, that put me at ease but I just wanted my prescription and to get out of there, she asked me how I was feeling, any changes and thoughts on counselling, I didn’t say anything of note. I got a 4 week repeat prescription and left.
At home I binged on 5 packets of crisps and a fish fillet with beans. After this I played Digimon for 4 hours.
I attended my counselling appointment but I don’t think there’s anything to really talk about and I was right, all we discussed again were my poor social skills a perceptions, I didn’t really understand or agree with anything he said in response to me but it doesn’t matter, my problems are trivial and there are people who need this service more. It was suggested I attend a local LGBTQ group, I shot of down, he spoke of self fulfilling prophecies. I’ll go to the next session then fuck it, I’m wasting everyones time.
I’m happy admitting I’m trans, I just want to buy some clothes and come out already. Tried shopping on ASOS, too expensive.
Bought my sister some £50 Vans since I didn’t get anything for her birthday.
I think the trans person has quit or maybe they were a temp, upsetting that we never really spoke.