The start of the day got off to a brilliant start, I asked the quirky guy for help with the thing at work I didn’t know how to do. He initially got up and walked out of the room with me following behind speaking to his back, I then sat down at my desk thinking he declined me. He later returned, approached me and showed me what I needed to know, he emailed me some notes and asked for me name, guess we’re even for the time I forgot his name. There another guy in the company, a director, with the same name and I joked that I was me in response to him asking for me to confirm my surname, he responded well, pretending to be annoyed, I think.
I’m pretty sure I’m fucking up massively at work, there has to be a reason I’m responding to so many more emails than almost everyone else. I got praised by a woman I assume is management, she gave me 50 raffle tickets for exceeding my email targets. I was modest. Could win some cool stuff but I’d rather avoid the attention the situation would bring.
At the end of the day, the little guy who dresses smart walked with me, we talked, he asked about my plans for the weekend, I tried to be vague but I eventually admitted I’m going to play Digimon “like a manchild”, he was cool about it, speaks well, asked what snacks/fuel I’m going to have, I said I find junk food disgusting, mentioned not liking Mountain Dew, he said he lived in America for a year, shared an anicdote, I didn’t have a response. He spoke about Mass Effect being disappointing, I joked about playing it again on a higher difficulty or new skin, my tone must have been off, didn’t realise it was a joke. He’s from Blackpool, this part of the conversation flowed well, I said that must be a fun place to live, brought up my time working in an amusement park. Then things got weird, he said he needs to run to catch his train and I can run with him, it was a joke but I didn’t get it so I ran alongside him for a few second, while running I asked him the time and then I stopped running and shouted that I’d just walk. So moronic of me to run alongside him like a child.
Had cereal for breakfast, tuna baguette for lunch and rice for dinner. There was a bottle of Lucozade too.
Need to remove some body hair again.
Played Digimon for a couple of hours.
I arranged to pick up my repeat prescription of antidepressants with a pharmacy.
Buying clothes and more drugs tomorrow. Getting closer to telling my family I’m trans.
I think I’m a solid B cup.