My counselling session was mostly uneventful, I don’t care about social interaction, I give up on it, but my counsellor insists on talking nothing else, I hate continuing to talk about it because there’s no solution beyond acknowledging I’m at fault for not engaging others.
I went on a short tirade about it being unfair a “short, ugly coworker who wears a suit” has made a friend but I haven’t. My counsellor pointed out that he was probably aware of his flaws and wore a suit to boost his self esteem.
This hit me hard, I’m a terrible person and I don’t know what to do with this new level of self-loathing. I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve anything, I am inferior to the one I was looking down on. So now that I know for certain that I’m scum, how can I function knowing rather than feeling that I’m inferior to everyone else in the room.
Played Final Fantasy 15, I like it.
Watched GLOW with my sister, I like it too.