Fuck You

Got fired yesterday, didn’t post because the owner of the McDonalds franchise in Aberdeen threatened to withhold my wages if I posted anything at all relating to McDonalds. So I’m going to post the last 3 days right now along along with a response to the mess in the comments of the previous post.

Comments

Thanks for the support and sympathy, it’s what keeps me going. You understand my capabilities, understand why I do the things and I do and have reasonable expectations of me.

Few other things came to light, possibly trolling but to summarise, the Polish girl shared this blog with numerous people (despite being upset), her fat friend is the one who reported me and the girl in the comments is supposedly a third work colleague. I don’t believe most of it, it is definitely the Polish girl who is posting in the comments, I “know” her well enough to ascertain that. I don’t name anyone in this blog, it only causes people to be upset if they have enough background on the issue, there is no ‘humiliation’ going on, as for personal distress, you really shouldn’t be reading this, you know what to expect at this point. Not really sure how calling a fat person fat is enough to cause them distress though, not that that’s what happened, I suspect her more attractive friend pushed her into doing her dirty work. Regarding her and I though, I said sorry, I like(d) her in a non sexual way, not sure why she is so vindictive and angry after she has taken more than her pound of flesh.

The idea that there are several people in this city who read my blog is interesting. Not sure what the logic behind sharing it is. If it is humour then the girl wouldn’t have been offended and had me arrested in the first place, not to mention maintaining her grudge and continuing to punish me.

Monday

First thing I did was drop off a £400 deposit to my new roommate.

It was a bank holiday, were expecting a lot of customers, management were wrong and sent people home early. I got a call on my way home from the owner of the franchise telling me there had been a complaint, this blog, hambeast, twink etc. wanted to know why someone would make these unpleasant comments. said she hasn’t finished reading it and we would have a meeting tomorrow where we could go through it together. He mentioned censorship and that he had people breathing down his neck to fire me instantly, seemed like a cool guy. Giving me a chance to defend myself, a right the university did not afford me.

Before I left, Icompleted 6 of my scheduled 8 hours. There was one aggressive customer, who didn’t understand the pricing, he was lower class, spoke with some kind of common accent. Said he wanted to speak to someone who spoke his language. I held firm, looked him in the eyes and repeated myself and bluntly asked him questions regarding his order. It was quite a power rush because I knew he couldn’t physically harm me despite being bigger than me. Eventually a manager came over (South Asian, complete with accent) came by and took over, told me to go wash my hands for a bit. I was shaking like a leaf despite being confident. The shaking didn’t stop for a while, overheard some conversation, the trash was angry because he felt I was looking down on him, felt good to hear that was how I come across to people. The manager was very nice to me, he always was, everyone was, he was also very understanding, told me I didn’t have to deal with stuff like that. My trainer also asked me later in the day if I was okay and what meal I would like during lunch, nice guy, he knew how difficult it was for me to speak to the kitchen staff and/or I felt awkward waiting for my food to be prepared. Literally everyone working there was a nice person, the nicest collection of people I have ever met anywhere and I’m an absolute cunt for upsetting them.

Tuesday

Woke up nice and early as my shift started at 12, after I came out of the shower I got a call telling me that I should come in at 4, I had some time to kill. Watched wrestling and the second Eurovision semi. Good acts from both semis didn’t get to the final, it’s always worthwhile watching more tan just the final.

Hoped on a bus and arrived at the store. Gotnthere early, so sat in the bathroom for half an hour playing the one game on my £10 phone, Soduku. The ‘serious business’  manager told me to take a seat in the dining area, few other colleagues looked grumpy, wonder if they knew too? Yesterday after the rude customer incident I was thinking I would rather continue to ride the sympathy train than have people think I’m a dangerous freak.

The owner arrived quickly, he also summoned my trainer, the kid, who looked very glum. We went up to a meeting room up above in silence, was told the kid would be taking minutes. We sit down and I’m instantly told I’m fired. It was a probation period so he doesn’t legally need a reaso but I ask for his reasoning anyway. He says it’s because I called a colleague a hambeast and a customer a landwhale, I tell him in t just means fat, he says that’s still unacceptable and he repeats the urbandictionary definition of hambeast, I smirk.

Says I had potential, I’m in a tough position now without a job. Repeats some shit from my blog about me having poor social skills, not knowing what is appropriate, the difference between right and wrong, I’m a messed up individual, I’m a weirdo and the people who read my blog are weirdos, I tell him that he is not being insightful more than once and he is just repeating the conclusions I came to myself in my blog. I tell him when you do something wrong, you say sorry and move on, he wasn’t impressed by that, I don’t know why. I mentioned the very recent apology on my blog and that he wasn’t considering the chronology of posts.

He just went on and on repeating things from the blog without saying why they were bad, he really liked calling me weird. Brought up my opinions on women, something about the same uniforms and her being as low as myself (I think that line was more of a racial thing actually) and how it felt good when a female coworker touched my arm, I laughed here and told him that it was a blog about social shit, it should be expected.

There just wasn’t anything to argue with, he made no points other than me being “weird” and “smug”, he likely used the latter word because he read it here. He mentioned peadophilia, the Polish girl needing to feel safe, brushed it off when I mentioned that there was nothing to indicate she was distressed. He finished off telling me I would likely go to prison or something similar, not if I didn’t clean up my act, just a flat out statement that I was heading for doom.

For some reason he asked me to take down the blog, told him it couldn’t be done as it had been backed up by others and there is google cache, said he didn’t know what that was and he didn’t believe me. Not sure why he expected me to agree considering her had already fired me.

I tried responding to the weirdo claims by saying I had gotten a lot better recently. He didn’t care at all. He didn’t want a discussion, he said as much too. In was expecting a trial, what was waiting for me was a summary execution.

And to add insult to injury he said that my wages would be withheld for 2 weeks and released only if I keep silent about this matter. I asked for clarification and he said that I should just pretend as if I had never worked here. This exchange went on for a bit, he was quite threatening but it was comic even then because I kept asking for clarification on his vague threats (he never mentioned legal action so his tone was disproportionate to the severity of what was within his power).

Feel pretty badly about how the meeting went but I need to remember it wasn’t a fair game. He had already made up his mind, he saw me as undesirable and not worth the trouble. There was no discussion to be had.

Going home I texted my solicitor who told me I had no rights as I wasn’t hired long enough to be an employee (rights under employment law), didn’t hear most of what he said though as I was on a noisy bus. I don’t think wages for work done can be withheld and fuck him for trying to pull that shit, he owes me just over £200.

During the meeting I tried to avoid looking at the kid, was ashamed at myself for upsetting him though I think he must have been lied to, I never used derogatory remarks to refer to him, twink just means a young gay guy. I should have said sorry to him, spoken to him in some way, I really appreciated his kindness towards me. Shame he will never know unless I go back to the store and say my piece, I really want them all to know how much I loved them.

During the meeting I was worried about him bringing up certain things I posted, some of it I can laugh off but I would wince if he talked about the stuff regarding my thoughts on women ignoring me and giving me attention.

I suspected for a while that my new/old friend grassed me up but it was obviously the only other candidate, no one else would be able to apply pressure.

Felt pretty down the rest of the day. Got to rank 14 on Hearthstone again after falling pretty far, long win streak, picked me up a bit.

Put a deposit down on that room and employment prospects are better here than back home so I will be staying here even if it burns a hole in my pocket unless I get a job (got a shockingly large amount of saving so I technically don’t need a job), plus there are other benefits. The guy renting the room messaged me and the other roommates, he has a childish or just dated internet style of humour. Trying to play along I tried responding lol, instead I posted ‘loli’, he said ‘interesting’ when I claimed it was autocorrect, he is east Asian or SEA so he obviously knows what loli is.

Wednesday

Talked to my friend for a bit, he gave me some advice and asked if I wanted to hang out. I declined as I was not in a state of self pity, today I felt motivate and I had to make the most of it before my flame died out. But first I distracted myself with some other errands like going to the bank and the opticians.

Got a free eye exam, better quality of service than in my hometown, wonder if they even knew what they were doing? Apparently they even missed some kind of nerve tissue in my eye. Going to the optician was something In was afraid of before but know I either am more confident in general or what I really need to be doing is even tougher so I am tackling the optician which seems soft in comparison. Gay Greek guy helped my pick out glasses. Didn’t really know what I wanted, was going to but 2 for £69 but ended up with 1 for £105 with the lens thinned. It was hard enough to select one pair, I just wanted it to be over and leave. All the glasses looked the same, I should have just picked up a couple of ransoms instead of accepting the guys help.

At the bank the guy asked how I was and I ignored him and jumped into the business. I realised my mistake and later said “how are you etc” and then a little while later he said something similar. Not sure if we were on the same page.

Went to the library for the first time. It’s great, plenty of computers, big place, friendly staff, free registration. Very convenient. I sat down and worked on my CV and printed off a few copies, printing was ridiculously expensive.

Will apply to jobs tomorrow.

Go to citizens advice to check what action I can take against the owner.

Use the library computers to apply to jobs since it’s more convenient than this tablet.

Will also need to go to a few places in person to hand in a hard copy of my CV

Can’t keep me down, literally not even upset about losing my job, barely even angry and I’m angry about being mistreated by the owner not by the girl who reported me though that was a really bitchy and vindictive move.

Done the whole depressed, self pity shit, nothing is going to change if I don’t do anything about it.