I woke up at 10am, pretty much exactly the same time I would’ve woken up if I had work to go to today. I started off my listening to some YouTube videos and playing a small amount of Magic Arena, I only got one win when playing draft. My dad came into my room and interrupted me doing nothing, yet I still didn’t have the time for him, for some reason. He wanted me to buy a new “shower pipe”, since the part of the shower that connects the head to the taps is damaged, he told me to cut my hair as he does during every conversation we have and then he just stared off into space as he sat on the edge of my bed.Like last time, he asked if I was fasting and if I was Muslim, he took it more seriously when I said that I wasn’t this time but it didn’t result in a meaningful conversation. He took a call while he was here too, he’s angry about something, I think he has problems.
It was around 1pm now and I decided to change my bedsheets and shower, I replaced the penguin duvet with a solid red one. The shower was difficult due to reason I mentioned earlier, I had to strangle the tube between the head and taps to get any water to come and I couldn’t raise it too high. It’s ridiculous that my sister has deluded herself into thinking the top floor shower is hers. I applied this leave-in conditioner for curly hair for the first time, not sure if I applied enough of if it’s made a difference.
I was bored for a while longer before I watched the most recent episode of JoJo and since the PS4 was on, I tried to play APEX legends but couldn’t get passed the tutorial, the left analogue stick wouldn’t move my character. I went on to delete it. I shopped for new video games but there’s nothing of note out there. It soon turned to 6 o’clock, I downloaded “Pokemon: The Power of Us” and streamed it via my PS4, it wasn’t anywhere near as good as the previous one but still easily among the best Pokemon films.
The day was now almost done, though it had never started. I just had no idea what to do, it didn’t help that it was a Sunday. I also feel like my self esteem has been severely knocked since coming out to my family, I don’t want to go out presenting as male but I also feel like I can’t present as female now.
Tomorrow, I’ll go to the city, it’s a weekday so everything will be open and all day too. I’ll also be able to finally close that savings account. Tomorrow is the day of one of those weekly Magic the Gathering events, I’m nervous about attending.
I’m thinking about travelling abroad but it won’t make a me a more interesting and complete person, I don’t know what will.