No time to live

I must once again apologise for the lateness of my entry, moreso to myself than anyone else. As usual, I find my professional work all consuming, I haven’t sunk my claws into a new video game so it truly is a case of simple exhaustion.

The work highlight was when a co-worker was looking for staples, I went into another office and took staples from there to give to him, I also took a fully loaded stapler just in case the staples were the wrong size. The staples were correct so I took the stapler home with me.

When my dad drives me to work there is a 30% chance he will say things to upset me, maybe even shout, this results in me spending my shift thinking about committing suicide. I am still quite far away from actually doing it, one of the barriers is that I’m not sure of the method.

I’m stalling booking my holidays as I’m not sure how best to use them up to spend time with my sister in London, Shippy, Ebin and the Xmas meetup. I have 7 days to use up, so I was thinking to use them on various Fridays so that I can travel on the Saturday.

I’ve signed up to a video game rental company and I’m currently experiencing “Death Stranding”, the graphics are too notch and I like walking around, I’m going to get as many trophies as I can before returning it for something else. I’m still on the free trial stage, I think if I sign up to the Value 2 package, I can experience around 4 games in one month and won’t be a second month. There aren’t many games out there that are worth checking out that I haven’t already.

I bought a Pokemon Celebrations Elite Trainer box, they are a hot property right now and hard to get a hold of, cost me £52.50 and I could have sold it for around £75. I pulled one of the rarest cards in the set a Shiny Mew, it sells for over £30.

Not sure of my next moves

Over the last 2 weeks I have had one driving lesson, this was due to my instructor having a driving test at the time we usually have our lessons. It was my 4th instruction and I was driving on the main road, it felt comfortable and I think I quite like it, though I’m not sure how I’m supposed to perceive hazards, my instructors sees them long before I do.

Big changes are being made at work, they’re putting together a “central admin team” made up of 4 people who will work during the day and do my job. I will continue working nights and take on any work left over. I’m happy with this change as I believe it will mean less work for me.

My video game of choice recently has been “Pokemon Sword”, I’ve been catching the Pokemon from the DLC that I’m missing from my collection, I now have them all apart from 6 alternate forms, 3 Gigantimax that I can get by grinding out Max Soup and the other 3 are less obtainable, a Champions Cap Pikachu, Zarude in his regular form and Hoopa in it’s Unbound form, I have Hoopa, I just need to wait for a game where I can transfer it, teach it a move and change its form. I’ve already pre-ordered Pokemon Diamond, got it for under £40 WITH the bonus figurine of Dialga. I have a fair bit of grinding ahead of me on Pokemon Shield but I am thinking ahead to my next game, there doesn’t seem to be anything at a reasonable price, oh, forgot to add, I bought a Switch Pro controller, going to play Bayonetta 2 at some point, not sure what other games on the Switch I really want to play. Been meaning to try out Final Fantasy 14.

I am going to try house hunting again, the prices have unfortunately gone up.

14 Words isn’t Enough

I lament that I haven’t updated in almost 2 weeks but this entry should be the most engaging in some time. The week before last was just work, I felt quite drained and desired time off, I got a bit more training, this makes my job slightly busier. I applied to 3 jobs, I meant to apply to more but couldn’t muster the energy. I also messed up a bit, but hopefully that should blow over.

I put in some holiday requests for the following week but it didn’t appear my manager even looked at them, I know other people have booked time off and we are short staffed, so I was worried I might not be able to use up my remaining days. I last checked the holiday request on Thursday, my manager wasn’t in on Friday so didn’t bother checking, so assumed I wasn’t getting it, I came back into work on Monday and the first thing I was told was that “I thought you were off” by a colleague, I checked the holiday request on my computer and left, embarrassed, a female co-worker held me up by telling me about the time that another colleague didn’t realise they had time off either.

I spent 56 hours of the last week playing the video game “Lost Judgment”, the story is quite engaging and there are side activities, I would rate the game a 6 or 7 out of 10. I have now sold it to CEX, I wasn’t able to defeat the superboss, Amon, as he was able to heal. I purchased the game for around £25 using £15 worth of AMEX points, I sold the game for £29. I think I may be done for video games for a while now but I’m not sure what else to do.

I had a driving lesson on Thursday but forgot, I thought it was Friday, I got a text to come down and got dressed quickly, we did right turns, I’m not very good at them, they’re not smooth motions. We were supposed to go onto the main road next lesson but think that’s been delayed now.

On Saturday I went to London to spend time with my sister, she’s working there as previously mentioned, I took the coach down as it was the cheapest mode of travel, I listened to music and it was a mostly pleasant trip, it was raining moderately, this didn’t bother me massively as I like the rain, we first had a meal together at “Wingstop”, it’s popular due to being halal, the black cashier was somewhat friendly and advised against the atomic sauce which she said was very spicy. I regretted buying the wings as there wasn’t much meat, should have just gotten the strips or a burger. The unlimited refills of the drink were good though and the chips filling, the ranch sauce was delicious.

Our next stop was the British Museum, I can not visit this place enough times, though calling it the “Egyptian Museum” would be more fitting. After 2 hours we left, it was raining heavily now, we found shelter in a store I wanted to visit, “Forbidden Planet”, the largest comic book store in the UK. I checked out all the expensive figurines but didn’t buy anything. we now headed to “Japan Centre” and bought some Mochi and ate it while drinking as the next stop was a coffee shop, McDonalds, we had originally wanted to find a StarBucks for the Pumpkin Spice Latte but couldn’t find one with seating due to the rain. We got Toffee Latte’s instead. It was getting late now, it was passed 8pm, we headed to the underground and visited a few clothing stores, I bought a belt and top at H&M, the black female cashier was a bit rude, I spent some time signing up to the H&M app to get 10% off, before I did though I asked how long it would take and she said “as long as you make it take”. My sister used her “Pret Manger” app to get me a free Pumpkin Spice Latte, I didn’t know what to make of the taste and I walked my sister home and then waiting for the coach home.

I was quick on the coach and made the poor decision of sitting towards the back, I usually opt for the middle, I’m not sure what altered my decision making on this occasion. Sitting behind me was a drag queen who had just finished a show, in front of me a white woman and to the right, in the seats adjacent, a man of African decent, he had a cigarette behind his ear. I began the trip by playing Hearthstone on my phone, the “Af” chose instead of loudly have conversations on his phone about drugs and shooting people, I also caught he was 25 though he was very short and behaved more like a delinquent teenager. In between criminal calls, he loudly played rap music. The drag queen behind me kept muttering things like “Are we really doing this?”, after an hour, a young white man approached the Af and asked if he could turn the music off, he did this politely, the Af was lying across two seats like a bed, he chastised the white man, declared all he had to say was please, the white responded by stuttering an apology and saying he didn’t mean to offend him, the Af at first appeared to comply but then starting sticking his middle finger up at the white and laughing.

Some more time passed and to be honest, them music wasn’t really bothering me but it was the principle so I loudly leaned over my seat and repeatedly said “Hello!?”, he ignored me so I said “I know you can hear me, turn that music off”, I asked if he was “5 or 25”, he tried talking trash back to me by saying I should look away, I didn’t, I continued my barrage and told him it was common sense to not play music in such an environment, he was confused and prattled on, I told him I couldn’t understand a word he was saying and he responded by saying, just say it, “I’m a black man and you’re an Indian”, I replied, “You’re a fucking twat”, I went on to call him a cunt. He tried bringing up that he had more responsibilities than me, that he had a kid when he was 15, I asked him if he was bragging about that. The bus driver eventually came over, I couldn’t hear what was said but the Af lost his nerve completely and went silent for the remainder of the journey, almost anyway. He kept mumbling to himself as his sort have a habit of doing.

We stopped at Birmingham and the Af was preparing to leave, he let me know we were in Birmingham, I said “OK, great, thanks” and continued to ignore him, he also did an Indian accent and referred to me as “Auntie” but at that time I was trying to sleep and ignored him, as he left he threated to kill me if he saw me, I gave him no reaction as I know that’s what his sort rely on, they lack the ability to read people. Some others Afs left at the same time, I found it a bit amusing how one woman was telling another Af about how people said she looked Nigerians or Ghanaian and couldn’t pin point her exact ethnicity.

I thought I was a hero after putting the Af in his place and that people would applaud me but that didn’t happen, later in the trip, the drag queen was on the phone to one of their drag children and recalling the successful show they just had in London, they seemed to go by the name “Ginge”, he quietly referred to the coach trip as “anti-social”.

After arriving in Manchester, I got the bus back home, brushed my teeth and went to sleep.