On the night of my last entry, Wednesday, I went to Sainsbury’s. As usual there were few people in the store at this time and around half were not wearing masks. This was massively frustrating, yes, they were all Pakistani. I slammed my basket down at the self checkout and on my way out approached the Afghan security guard and sarcastically quipped “so after 6pm, do people not need to wear masks anymore?”, he asked me to step back, I refused, he got mad as I pointed out people right in front of him without a mask, he said “what did you just call me?” and threatened to knock me the fuck out, realising I wasn’t getting anywhere with this monkey, I left and complained about him, I did throw some barbs on my way out though, telling him he was shit at his job and flipping the bird.
The rest of my time was spent playing “Persona 5: Strikers”, it was pretty much from the time I got up until I went to sleep, I’ve finished the story and I’m now just grinding levels for the platinum trophy which will take a few more hours. I feel I really wasted this week off. My diet has been awful, lots of Doritos and dip. Lots of double meals.
The worst news is that I have burned the lower half of my stomach, the skin has been darkened and in some areas the skin has been removed entirely leaving the bright pink surface beneath exposed, there are multiple patches such as those, I look like a leopard. These burns are likely a result of my hot water bottle, I often pressed the boiling bottle against my chest even though it brought me pain as it felt good momentarily. I need to use bio oil to sort this, I don’t think I’ve ever been as insecure about my body in recent memory as right now.
My dad gave me a call and insisted on giving me a ride to my new job for the first week, I accepted, I wouldn’t want to risk running late on the first week. I am suspicious though and rightfully so but will just hold my ground when he pushes.