My watch continues

I didn’t do much during the “day” portion of the day other than post a Magic the Gathering card that I sold. It’s a good one, I could have chosen to purchase 3 more copies of it for my deck but I’ve gone with budget options instead. I’m looking forward to the big tournament, it can’t come soon enough.

My night shifts this week are 10pm-6am, it’s not much different to the shift from last week which was an hour earlier. I was distressed to learn that 4chan has been blocked on more computer, the Bitdefender(?) firewall has been rolled out on more machines. Fortunately though, 4channel is still available but the pages won’t auto-update, I need to keep manually refreshing the page.

It was just me and that other woman again, I put my headphones on almost immediately and we didn’t initially communicate. Since my earphones have been lost, I’m using my PS4 branded headphones, they’re clunky but the sound quality along with comfort levels are great. During my “lunch break” I tried going outside, it was 2am, I got the end of the street but turned back, it was too dark and quiet, I was seeing and hearing things that weren’t there. When I got back the woman who I sat with started talking to me, she asked about my shift today, we made some small talk about work, I criticised how much overtime she does and proudly remarked that I’ve done none.

The conversation then turned to going outside, we agreed that it was scary around this time. She mentioned how she walks by a police station when heading home so no one would try anything, I said that if they did, they’d be pretty fucking gutsy, silly thing to say when when we were talking about rape without actually saying the word. I also chose to say that her mothers suggestion of a whistle wouldn’t be effective as no one would be around to hear it at this time. Strange things to say but no other responses came to mind. We went on for 10 minutes, I kept trying to get away by looking at my phone. It’s hard to find common ground.

I got home a little before 7pm and slept like a log.

Todays picture is of the deck box I recently bought, it changes colour with heat/touch. I’m disappointed that there appears to be a small scratch near the top, I can’t get a refund or replacement since I paid entirely with Amazon promotion credit. I suppose then I can’t also complain since it’s free.

Finally, a down day

I woke up at 1am, still tired, I’m not sure why I’m requiring so much sleep. As I was getting out of bed, my father interrupted me, he tossed an envelope into my bedroom, it was half the Revised edition Magic the Gathering lands that I ordered last week.

Throughout the day, I didn’t do anything spectacular. I started watching the new season of “Orange is the New Black” and went out to grab some Coke Zero, Doritos and store brand dip. For a good few hours, I didn’t do a whole lot apart from watching the show, I did some washing up and call up the energy company to setup a direct debit for my father, I’m surprised by how high the bill is. It took 20+ minutes to get through to someone.

I spent a little time downstairs with the family and then retreated back to my room where I played Magic Arena and watched YouTube videos. I also started overeating, I gobbled 6 HobbNobb biscuits and some Miso Cup Noodles (only 200 calories).

I decided to finally commit to attend the Magic the Gathering Grand Prix in a fortnight. I spent £55 on entry into the event and another £45 on travel, I’ve chosen against travelling a day early and getting a hotel there, I’m instead going to start travelling at 5am in order to get there before the 9am start time.

There are a couple of guys on KIK I’m still talking to but I don’t know how much further we could go.

Lending a Hand

I woke up at 3pm today due to staying up late last night watching the UFC event, I also generally had to catch up on sleep lost over the last few days. There was no one home at this time but I went through the usual motions of eating and showering before heading to my aunts as I’d promised to help with her CV.

My family were at her house too since my cousin had arrived back from holiday. There was some chatter and I sat down with my laptop and started copying things from her handwritten CV to Microsoft Word and formatting it all. The end result wasn’t amazing, she has plenty of admirable experience but I’m not great at CV building.

I stayed around for a while after everyone else left and had a meal. Another cousin arrived back as he was visiting for the day, we didn’t speak much as he was preparing to leave again. The rain was heavy so yet another cousin offered me a lift home. It was around 7pm now. I sat in the living room and watched Antiques Roadshow with the family and the cousin who spends a lot of time with us these days. Afterwards we watched the new Romesh Ranganathan show, he was visiting Zimbabwe (or “Zim” as the locals call it”), it was educational, interesting and amusing.

I retreated to my bedroom around 10pm and tried to find stuff on Amazon to buy, I want to use up the credit I have, I have £10 worth and need to find £20 worth of stuff, it seems wasteful to purchase more card game supplies and with the markup on video games, I wouldn’t be saving much.

A little after midnight, my father told me to cut my hair again while berating me. He also said that I’m wasting too much money after seeing my new laptop and PS4 branded headphones.

I’m quite proud of the fact that over the last 3 days, I’ve had “plans” and done social activities. If Including my trip on Monday with my friend, that’s over half the week. This could be one of the best weeks I’ve had in recent memory.

Cheeky Nando’s

My cousin dropped me a message over on Whatsapp last night asking if I wanted to come along to the Trafford Centre with her, I agreed. So, today I woke up at 11am, though I really needed more sleep, I showered, picked an outfit then waited for her to arrived, she was a bit late and then we waited for my sister to get back from her part-time job. It was me, my cousin and my two youngest sisters hanging out for the day but due to the heavy rain we decided to skip it and just get the meal.

On the care ride, we listen to music, taking turns to pick tracks, I went with my current favourite “Rats” by Ghost and an all time classic in “Single Ladies” by Beyonce. We arrived at Nando’s and were quickly seated, I took my time picking a meal since I’ve only been here once before, I went with a type of burger, chips with peri-peri salt and unlimited drinks. We also got some halloumi sticks and wings for the table. The food was very tasty and I enjoyed trying out the various sauces, the conversation was natural, easy and enjoyable.

We then went back home and chilled out in the living room for around 6 hours, my cousin didn’t leave until half past midnight. We struggled to find something to watch so just settled on “Law & Order: SUV” episodes. My sister went out to get desert, McFlurry’s. Time was also spent playing Monopoly, I won.

At night, I got the living room to myself for the first time in years, I saw that there was a UFC event on so I chose to stick on and watch it, it’s been a long time since I’ve done that.

I sent the below picture to my friend and he made the hilarious comment that people usually take pictures of their food before eating it. We spoke a few times today, it’s nice to have someone there that I can share my thoughts with.

A little ‘Friday Night Magic’

I got up at noon and ate half a bowl of porridge, my cousin was visiting again so I stayed downstairs and spoke to her for a bit. I also helped my sister change out her printed cartidges, it seems our relationship is improving.

I then showered and headed outside to collect some trading cards from the delivery office, no one was around to answer the door yesterday and the package required a signature. Half way down, I turned around after opening up Pokemon GO and seeing a creature that I needed not too far away. On my way to the Pokemon, I saw various ethnic groups lining the streets, one lot was Polish, I know this because I heard them saw “Kurwa”.

After picking my stuff up at the delivery office, I went back home and started fixing up my deck for Friday Night Magic, I also changed up how I packed everything. I spent quite a while on this, longer than expected. While packing everything, the post came, it was the deck box I ordered yesterday, small problem with it though, it’s supposed to change colour with heat/touch but it seems to perpetually be the colour it’s supposed to change to. I’m not able to get a refund on it since I didn’t pay any money for it, not sure if Amazon do exchanges.

My cousin was here again and I spoke to her for a short while before heading off. I got to the store about 15 minutes before it started. I paid and went into the gaming area, there were several tables setup, I looked around for someone sitting on their own and headed straight towards them. I was the only one of Pakistani blood there amongst the 20 people there (I found the number online, on my DCI account), the guy I sat with had an ethnicity that was difficult to pinpoint. I asked the usual stuff about him being a regular, Magic Arena brought me into the game and then went onto say that this was the first time I was playing someone other than my younger sister or friend from Lancaster, I went into great detail about him, how we met in Preston, played in a pub and he brought outdated jank decks along with him. I repeated the same stuff to everyone throughout the night, it made sense, it was an introduction to who I was and why I’m here. I played a few games with the guy, he was a casual, his deck was non-meta, he had a cardboard deck box. I won, 2 games to 1. I bought along modern and pauper decks but didn’t get a chance to play either because no one else brought those decks with them, so I was stuck playing my mono-red aggro deck throughout the day even during breaks between rounds where I could approach people and just ask if they wanted to play.

The list for first round pairings went up and I found I was matched against someone with a female name, when they approached me, I asked again if they were that person. I was surprised because this person was trans but early on in their transition, they had significant beard shadow, there were 2 other trans people, I think their clothing options were brave and I applaud how open and unabashed they are but they had similar issues, all were also overweight. I’m not saying they were bad people or that I dislike them, just observations. I won, 2 games to 0. This person wasn’t playing a meta deck, as far as I could tell. After the game, I turned to my left and watched two other people play a game, one guy was a judge and running a deck that just contained planeswalkers, the other had a mono-red aggro precon deck. The judge won 2-1.

My next game was against that very same judge, I got trounced 2-0, he got up and left, just like the last person after the game. The person sitting next to me was trans and asked what my preferred pronouns were, I responded that I was male and just had long hair, not a good thing for a trans person to say but I didn’t want to be lumped in with the trans crowd here, I didn’t want that to be my defining characteristic amongst this new group of people. I then found another person who was sitting on their own and played a couple games against them, I won. We chatted a bit but then he got talking to someone else about the game, I didn’t understand or have anything to contribute. I just stared off for 5 minutes.

The next round was again a guy with an alt look, the earlobe things. He had a big personality, a loud, confident voice. Friendly, not overweight or any other stereotype, he was the closest thing to a normie here. We were at 1 game each, during the third game I realised that I’d forgotten to shuffle my graveyard back into my deck so we restarted, this was very kind of him since technically, I should have been disqualified. I won the game. I then entered a conversation with a guy who approached the two of he, he knew the other guy but stayed to chat to me, we got on well enough, he mentioned having social anxiety, I didn’t tell him that I did too.

The final game was against a guy with the same low level autism as Quirky Chad and Quirky Guy, he was a bit ruder though and seemed very frustrated by the deck I was playing. There were some nice moments too, got him to express joy. Eventually though he won 2-1. The store staff then tried to get everyone to leave, in the booster pack I got as a prize, I pulled a mythic rare card, might be able to sell it to cover the entry fee. I didn’t pullout my playmat during any of the games, the table wasn’t quite big enough and it felt like a hassle.

As I was leaving the store, the social anxiety guy encouraged me to come to the store more regularly, Monday in particular, I think I agreed. He hoped we could walk home together but we were going in different directions. The normies were out in full force on my way home. No one was awake when I got back.

I think I’ll go to the grand prix event next month, I love playing this game.

Recovering

My second night shift wasn’t much different to the first, despite no manager being around, I still worked myself hard because I had to make a good impression, people must be keeping an eye on us right now since there are indicators that this night shift is still in the trial phase. There was just the two of us, me an a woman, we didn’t talk much though there were a few small discussions about work. We both eventually just put earphones on or in.

I got up just before 2pm, that’s a shade under 8 hours of sleep. I wanted more but the heat and daylight made it impossible. When the day got started, I ate porridge and then for hours debating whether or not to purchase some revised/4th edition basic land cards. I ended up biting the bullet and dropped £12 or so. After this, I went on to spend the Amazon credit I’ve been hoarding. I bought the “Sidewinder” deck box that changes colour with touch. I’ve got another code for £5 off when I spend £20 but I don’t want to purchase anything in-particular, I should added something onto the purchase of the deck box,I’m really kicking myself that I’ve lost £5 worth of sleeves or a discount on another deck box.

My mother made jacket potatoes, I ate them, couldn’t let them go to waste. I then started attempting to fix my new laptop while watching “Umbrella Academy” in the background. I’ve made some progress, I had to manually download a couple of Windows updates and the problem went away for a while but it’s not been completely eradicated, I’m now slowly applying more updates.

I managed to take a look at some dresses and bags but I didn’t buy anything since they’re quite expensive, I’ll think about it again tomorrow, if I’m spending so much, I need to find the right items. I took time to check messages from work, one woman asked me to cover her on Friday, I told her I’m working that day, so couldn’t. I also took a look at the stats, I hit 160 emails last night, the target is 70, I need to chill the heck out but at least now I’ll be seen as valuable.

I’m struggling to sleep, my body clock is slightly out of whack, I ended up grabbing an Arizona’s burger meal. When leaving, I peered into the living room, my sister asked if I was going to work, I said I was going to get food, she then let me know there was pizza on the table. I retorted with “no, that’s your food” as she and my other sisters had been enjoying it without me and would have continued to do so if I hadn’t appeared.

My legs and knee joints still hurt from my trip on Monday. I think I need to sleep more for my body to repair itself.

100% Disk Usage

I woke up at the time I usually do and I went through the day as normal despite having a night shift. I didn’t leave the house, I just put “Umbrella Academy” on in the background and tried setting up my new laptop. It looks nice but the performance is awful, I’m apaprantly suffering from the “100% disk usage error”, I’ve gone through the checklist of stuff that should make it work but nothing has, all that’s left is to try updating it but that’s not easy because for some reason, the internet connection is slower too. Gonna see if I can manually download the updates.

My night shift started at 9pm, I got there with time to spare and set up /britfeel/ along with the systems I needed for work, however, when work actually started, I barely looked at the thread because a manager was in and this was my first night shift so my stats would be checked, I also had to keep pace with the the one other new night shift person. Despite working harder than usual, I was still more energised that usual, the music in the background was less obnoxious and I was generally in a good mood. So, I’m liking the new setup, I feel great and optimistic about the future or that could just be because I’m still riding a high after meeting my friend the day before.

When I got home, I went to sleep for only 6 hours, it was all I needed, I wasn’t tired, my cousin suggested it could be adrenaline. My mood was picked up further when some cards arrived through the post, mint condition Lightning Bolt’s along with others, I was surprised, CardMarket is far superior to LilianaMarket, it’s worth paying the extra fees. Though LililanaMarket would still be better to get tonnes of 20p cards since it’s significantly cheaper. CardMarket for when you care about card condition.

A day out with my friend in Preston

I went to sleep last night so struggled to get out of bed, this was problematic because I had arranged to meet my friend in Preston at 1pm. I rolled out of bed sometime after 9am and got a shower in, I then I got around to buying my train tickets, they came to a humble £18.50, could’ve bought a fair few magic cards for that amount but I can’t buy someone to play against.

Picking my outfit for the day was moderately challenging, I went with my mom jeans, black Vans and a plain white t-shirt with a wine red check shirt on top, the pants were perhaps a size to big as they did slide down often during the day. As I was chilling, waiting for my train, I came to the sudden realization that I had booked an earlier train and I’d not missed it. I went back to the TrainLine website,partially refunded the ticket then bought another. I then came to another realization, that I didn’t have to refund the ticket, I could have gotten on any off-peak train. So, I lost £10 over nothing.

There was still time before I had to leave, I used it to do my makeup, there wasn’t much time, so all I could do were my eyebrows and put on a bit of lipgloss. I then headed out to the train station, it took 20 minutes to get to my first station, I then took a short 5 minute train to another station afterwhich I learned there had been some delays caused by track repairs, or something like that. I hopped on the first train going where I was and it was extremely overcrowded, hot too. I think the heat and my lip biting habit caused my gloss to fade, unfortunately. I arrived 20 minutes late, it didn’t matter though as my friend was having an even worse time with the trains, he had to get on a rail replacement coach service.

After hanging around the station for a while, I eventually left and located the point where his coach would be arriving. I sat on a rock and waited. While there I observed a drunk Scottish man abusing his young daughter, he later lifted her in the air so she could urinate on a public flowerbed in full view on passersby.

My friend arrived shortly after 2pm, I didn’t quite recognise him at first, well,I did,but I wasn’t 100% sure so I didn’t acknowledge him. I waited for him to get closer, his fair was shorter and he had some facial hair, he looked “tough” and a bit serious. Still a good looking guy, just different. We decided to get something to eat and drink first since the travelling had really taken it out of us. We passed a KFC but it was too busy, so we wandered around a little more until we found a Burger King, grabbed double bacon XL burger meal and I chose the halloumi burger meal, I’m watching my weight. I was surprised to learn that there was no meat, instead it was replaced with halloumi, I expected a cheese burger where the cheese used was halloumi. It was still delicious. We caught up but neither of us had gone through much since we last met, after we were done, we headed outside so my friend could have his second cigarette of the day, he loves his cigarettes and throwing them onto the street.

Our next destination was the local museum, the people around town that we’d seen so far had mostly been white, but inside the museum it became more diverse, even so someone wearing burka like clothing. We started moving up the first flight of stairs and stopped to view the name commemorating those died during one of the world wars. I tried and failed to find any Pakistani names. The first floor of the building had a mix of stuff, there was local history, pottery (both old and new), some ancient Egyptian stuff and the skeleton of an elk that was over 10,000 years old. The upper flood consisted of fine art, contemporary art, clothing, Viking stuff and some smaller crafts. Throughout the visit,my friend mocked all the exhibits, he was hilarious, as usual.His favourite articles were the old card boxes or holders that looked like they’d make good Magic the Gathering deck boxes if they were a larger. I like the contemporary art pieces as they challenged me and got me thinking, my friend was unable to understand them due to his autism.

Our next excursion was to the local card game store, it was a little further out from the town centre than I expected. We walked through the Pakistani district, the area was lined with Pakistani stores, we then moved into a side street featuring derelict buildings and a lack of infrastructural development. The were banners scattered around that helped us find the store but I was unsure that we were in the right place since it seemed like a terrible location. The card game store was located above a carpet store, we walked up a narrow staircase to reach the store itself. It was quite a disappointing sight, there was a large area setup with tables but the actual amount of merch available was limited.There were two shelves, one against a wall and another placed a little further away, out in the open. They had some board games, an extremely limited selection of playmats and miniatures. There was boosters and other actual card game products too but they were overpriced. On the plus side, there was a massive selection of card sleeves, almost every colour of Dragon Shield available and samples so you could see the actual colour. I wanted to leave ASAP, I didn’t like the atmosphere, the few guys there seemed like the type that would rape me if given the chance. My friend needed some sleeves though and didn’t care about the £2 markup, he settled on some “midnight blue” ones. After paying, the guy at the till kept taking to us so we couldn’t leave, we both have to take some blame for humouring him and it was me who unnecessarily remarking on my friend not using contactless again.

It was finally time to play some Magic, I brought up some pubs on my phone but we ended up going to the closest spoons. I kinda wanted to check out a sports bar but he wasn’t up for it. Didn’t really matter too much, I guess. At the pub, I wanted to get something different than I usually do so I got what he did, a “Wizard”, it’s a type of ale, it was disgusting. I later got a soft drink to wash it down.

We sat down at a booth, I pulled out my playmat and everything else and began by talking a little about stuff and then when we we were ready we started playing the actual game. His decks were all non-meta, casual, fun decks. He stole some wins against my meta decks though. I regret not building my chilled out fun decks, he did mention that with friends, they would play “janky” decks against each other.

Still though, we had tonnes of fun, I loved actually playing the game, the time flew by, we were there for 3-4 hours, just playing the game, yet this will be the shortest section of the blog entry despite being the most chilled out,natural and enjoyable. The talk of personal issues was quite limited. He doesn’t have a gf, he asked how my bf hunt was going and I offered to show him my kik but I never got around to actually presenting him with some of the lewd messages I’ve bee receiving. A couple of older people came over an asked what we were playing, both times I explained that it was “Magic the Gathering”, the oldest trading card game in the world, not a very good explanation in hindsight. At one point my friend told a joke that had me laughing for a minute, I was crying with laughter. I wanted to take a picture of the play area as he went out for his 5th cigarette but he remarked that would fuel speculation that he doesn’t actually exist, since it would look like I’m playing a game against myself.

We left at 8:20pm, my friend had another cigarette, we had to get back to the train station in timely manner incase the issues from earlier in the day hadn’t been resolved. They had, my train was ready first so we parted ways. We may hang out in Blackburn next time.

There was no one to greet me at home, it was around 10:30pm, I bought 99x fake or “proxy” Magic the Gathering cards, of my choice, for £20 before going to bed. I like building decks, making them from fake cards won’t detract from the fun.

Should’ve taken more pictures, a lot of them are just from the museum.

Q: How do I get a copy writer or journalist job?

Eating porridge regularly is making me feel more lethargic. I didn’t do much before I went into work which is just as well since I worked my ass off again once I got there. The “big boss” was there again,.you see, I had to put on a good showing since she seems to have a positive opinion of me, I was kept off the phones and instead worked on Mon-live channels throughout the day, it wasn’t nice, I found myself working harder than usual. It’s strangely far more relaxing being on the phones.

I had to speak up a few times but I found my voice was gravelly and unclear, I thought I’d long since gotten over this problem but here it is again. I’m not that nervous when speaking but my body and mind don’t appear to be in sync. My true voice only manifested when I spoke to the Pakistani guy, he looked down and tired throughout the day. He revealed that he and his friends had gotten into a fight with a drunk white guy while they were cruising in a car. He remarked how whites can’t hold their drink and then recalled how he punched him until he fell to the floor and then kicked his head. I challenged the validity of the story but he insisted it was true.

At home I ate rice and watched YouTube videos, there was nothing remotely interesting, I just needed the friendly background noise. My father has spent a significant sun of money purchasing tickets to Pakistan for the entire family, except me. He has been pestering people about this trip for ages and it looks like they’ve given in. My mother is still pushing for me to come too, it’s puzzling why it’s so important. I think it best that I stay at home so I can call the police if anything happens. My sisters have begun arguing my father though, I don’t know what exactly the issue is.

I’m considering buying 100 fake Magic the Gathering cards, of my choice, for £25.

Q: What sort of job do you think I’m suited for?

Today was unremarkable, I work up at the same time as usual, an hour to chill and another to prepare for work, I then went out. I’ve run out of mobile internet allowance and I don’t have earphones so the commute was tedious. At work I was on the phones initIally and took it like a usual Saturday, posting on 4chan inbetween calls and looking forward to when the phones to off so I can maximise my sloth.

This was not to be however as the usual team leader was off sick so one of the “big bosses” at work was covering, I didn’t feel I could slack off since I was offered the night shift gig.

My diet is going OK, I ate porridge for breakfast, a tuna baguette for lunch and at home I had a few crisps and lamb curry. At home some cards for my pauper deck arrived, I was disappointed that two of them were in bad condition but after checking my order I can see that I overlooked the condition they were advertised being in. As a result I had too drop another £1.50 for mint condition copies of the cards.

I’ve researched Preston a bit and I can attend the local museum there with my friend this Monday, there’s not too much in the city centre area,.most of the attractions are further out but there’s still enough to do.