A day out with my friend in Preston

I went to sleep last night so struggled to get out of bed, this was problematic because I had arranged to meet my friend in Preston at 1pm. I rolled out of bed sometime after 9am and got a shower in, I then I got around to buying my train tickets, they came to a humble £18.50, could’ve bought a fair few magic cards for that amount but I can’t buy someone to play against.

Picking my outfit for the day was moderately challenging, I went with my mom jeans, black Vans and a plain white t-shirt with a wine red check shirt on top, the pants were perhaps a size to big as they did slide down often during the day. As I was chilling, waiting for my train, I came to the sudden realization that I had booked an earlier train and I’d not missed it. I went back to the TrainLine website,partially refunded the ticket then bought another. I then came to another realization, that I didn’t have to refund the ticket, I could have gotten on any off-peak train. So, I lost £10 over nothing.

There was still time before I had to leave, I used it to do my makeup, there wasn’t much time, so all I could do were my eyebrows and put on a bit of lipgloss. I then headed out to the train station, it took 20 minutes to get to my first station, I then took a short 5 minute train to another station afterwhich I learned there had been some delays caused by track repairs, or something like that. I hopped on the first train going where I was and it was extremely overcrowded, hot too. I think the heat and my lip biting habit caused my gloss to fade, unfortunately. I arrived 20 minutes late, it didn’t matter though as my friend was having an even worse time with the trains, he had to get on a rail replacement coach service.

After hanging around the station for a while, I eventually left and located the point where his coach would be arriving. I sat on a rock and waited. While there I observed a drunk Scottish man abusing his young daughter, he later lifted her in the air so she could urinate on a public flowerbed in full view on passersby.

My friend arrived shortly after 2pm, I didn’t quite recognise him at first, well,I did,but I wasn’t 100% sure so I didn’t acknowledge him. I waited for him to get closer, his fair was shorter and he had some facial hair, he looked “tough” and a bit serious. Still a good looking guy, just different. We decided to get something to eat and drink first since the travelling had really taken it out of us. We passed a KFC but it was too busy, so we wandered around a little more until we found a Burger King, grabbed double bacon XL burger meal and I chose the halloumi burger meal, I’m watching my weight. I was surprised to learn that there was no meat, instead it was replaced with halloumi, I expected a cheese burger where the cheese used was halloumi. It was still delicious. We caught up but neither of us had gone through much since we last met, after we were done, we headed outside so my friend could have his second cigarette of the day, he loves his cigarettes and throwing them onto the street.

Our next destination was the local museum, the people around town that we’d seen so far had mostly been white, but inside the museum it became more diverse, even so someone wearing burka like clothing. We started moving up the first flight of stairs and stopped to view the name commemorating those died during one of the world wars. I tried and failed to find any Pakistani names. The first floor of the building had a mix of stuff, there was local history, pottery (both old and new), some ancient Egyptian stuff and the skeleton of an elk that was over 10,000 years old. The upper flood consisted of fine art, contemporary art, clothing, Viking stuff and some smaller crafts. Throughout the visit,my friend mocked all the exhibits, he was hilarious, as usual.His favourite articles were the old card boxes or holders that looked like they’d make good Magic the Gathering deck boxes if they were a larger. I like the contemporary art pieces as they challenged me and got me thinking, my friend was unable to understand them due to his autism.

Our next excursion was to the local card game store, it was a little further out from the town centre than I expected. We walked through the Pakistani district, the area was lined with Pakistani stores, we then moved into a side street featuring derelict buildings and a lack of infrastructural development. The were banners scattered around that helped us find the store but I was unsure that we were in the right place since it seemed like a terrible location. The card game store was located above a carpet store, we walked up a narrow staircase to reach the store itself. It was quite a disappointing sight, there was a large area setup with tables but the actual amount of merch available was limited.There were two shelves, one against a wall and another placed a little further away, out in the open. They had some board games, an extremely limited selection of playmats and miniatures. There was boosters and other actual card game products too but they were overpriced. On the plus side, there was a massive selection of card sleeves, almost every colour of Dragon Shield available and samples so you could see the actual colour. I wanted to leave ASAP, I didn’t like the atmosphere, the few guys there seemed like the type that would rape me if given the chance. My friend needed some sleeves though and didn’t care about the £2 markup, he settled on some “midnight blue” ones. After paying, the guy at the till kept taking to us so we couldn’t leave, we both have to take some blame for humouring him and it was me who unnecessarily remarking on my friend not using contactless again.

It was finally time to play some Magic, I brought up some pubs on my phone but we ended up going to the closest spoons. I kinda wanted to check out a sports bar but he wasn’t up for it. Didn’t really matter too much, I guess. At the pub, I wanted to get something different than I usually do so I got what he did, a “Wizard”, it’s a type of ale, it was disgusting. I later got a soft drink to wash it down.

We sat down at a booth, I pulled out my playmat and everything else and began by talking a little about stuff and then when we we were ready we started playing the actual game. His decks were all non-meta, casual, fun decks. He stole some wins against my meta decks though. I regret not building my chilled out fun decks, he did mention that with friends, they would play “janky” decks against each other.

Still though, we had tonnes of fun, I loved actually playing the game, the time flew by, we were there for 3-4 hours, just playing the game, yet this will be the shortest section of the blog entry despite being the most chilled out,natural and enjoyable. The talk of personal issues was quite limited. He doesn’t have a gf, he asked how my bf hunt was going and I offered to show him my kik but I never got around to actually presenting him with some of the lewd messages I’ve bee receiving. A couple of older people came over an asked what we were playing, both times I explained that it was “Magic the Gathering”, the oldest trading card game in the world, not a very good explanation in hindsight. At one point my friend told a joke that had me laughing for a minute, I was crying with laughter. I wanted to take a picture of the play area as he went out for his 5th cigarette but he remarked that would fuel speculation that he doesn’t actually exist, since it would look like I’m playing a game against myself.

We left at 8:20pm, my friend had another cigarette, we had to get back to the train station in timely manner incase the issues from earlier in the day hadn’t been resolved. They had, my train was ready first so we parted ways. We may hang out in Blackburn next time.

There was no one to greet me at home, it was around 10:30pm, I bought 99x fake or “proxy” Magic the Gathering cards, of my choice, for £20 before going to bed. I like building decks, making them from fake cards won’t detract from the fun.

Should’ve taken more pictures, a lot of them are just from the museum.

Q: How do I get a copy writer or journalist job?

Eating porridge regularly is making me feel more lethargic. I didn’t do much before I went into work which is just as well since I worked my ass off again once I got there. The “big boss” was there again,.you see, I had to put on a good showing since she seems to have a positive opinion of me, I was kept off the phones and instead worked on Mon-live channels throughout the day, it wasn’t nice, I found myself working harder than usual. It’s strangely far more relaxing being on the phones.

I had to speak up a few times but I found my voice was gravelly and unclear, I thought I’d long since gotten over this problem but here it is again. I’m not that nervous when speaking but my body and mind don’t appear to be in sync. My true voice only manifested when I spoke to the Pakistani guy, he looked down and tired throughout the day. He revealed that he and his friends had gotten into a fight with a drunk white guy while they were cruising in a car. He remarked how whites can’t hold their drink and then recalled how he punched him until he fell to the floor and then kicked his head. I challenged the validity of the story but he insisted it was true.

At home I ate rice and watched YouTube videos, there was nothing remotely interesting, I just needed the friendly background noise. My father has spent a significant sun of money purchasing tickets to Pakistan for the entire family, except me. He has been pestering people about this trip for ages and it looks like they’ve given in. My mother is still pushing for me to come too, it’s puzzling why it’s so important. I think it best that I stay at home so I can call the police if anything happens. My sisters have begun arguing my father though, I don’t know what exactly the issue is.

I’m considering buying 100 fake Magic the Gathering cards, of my choice, for £25.

Q: What sort of job do you think I’m suited for?

Today was unremarkable, I work up at the same time as usual, an hour to chill and another to prepare for work, I then went out. I’ve run out of mobile internet allowance and I don’t have earphones so the commute was tedious. At work I was on the phones initIally and took it like a usual Saturday, posting on 4chan inbetween calls and looking forward to when the phones to off so I can maximise my sloth.

This was not to be however as the usual team leader was off sick so one of the “big bosses” at work was covering, I didn’t feel I could slack off since I was offered the night shift gig.

My diet is going OK, I ate porridge for breakfast, a tuna baguette for lunch and at home I had a few crisps and lamb curry. At home some cards for my pauper deck arrived, I was disappointed that two of them were in bad condition but after checking my order I can see that I overlooked the condition they were advertised being in. As a result I had too drop another £1.50 for mint condition copies of the cards.

I’ve researched Preston a bit and I can attend the local museum there with my friend this Monday, there’s not too much in the city centre area,.most of the attractions are further out but there’s still enough to do.

My watch will soon begin

I restarted my diet today, it was porridge for breakfast and I purchased a few cards for my MTG pauper deck,.it’s important I have multiple decks available for Friday Night Magic, I’ve heard you should play games between rounds.

Work was more of the same, I was on the phones for about 5 hours before things were changed up. The day did go by quite quickly so I can’t complain too much. The chatty Pakistani guy is back, his grandmother passed away, when he told me, I said “I’m sorry that I asked”, I should have said “I’m sorry for bringing it up”.

Near the end of the day, the woman who interviewed me asked to speak to me in private. She told me I was among those chosen to do the new night shift. She said a lot of flattering things like she was glad I applied for it and hoped I would. However, due to us being understaffed over the weekends, until some new staff get trained up, I’m going to keep working weekends as normal and can do night shifts for 3 days, of my choice, during the rest of the week. At least I have Friday’s free for “Friday Night Magic” and this arrangement will just be for a month of so before I do a full night shift.

When I got home at around 9pm, I excitedly shared the news with my family. Other than more flexibility with my time, I’ll also be getting more money. My excitement was deflated slightly after receiving a call at 9:30pm, the HR woman at work wanted to confirm everything with me too but now it’s Friday-Sunday I’ll continue to work as normal and I’ll be working 2 might shifts of my choice. It’s pretty much the worst of both worlds.

My friend and I are back on to meet in Preston on Monday, I’m looking forward to it, one of the places we’ll be visiting is a local games store.

Relationships for productivity

I woke up later than yesterday, I needed a good amount of sleep to recharge myself. There were a couple of deliveries from Amazon arriving for me today so I loitered around downstairs with my sister, one of the two youngest ones, we played some MTG again and chatted a little. When my new laptop arrived she was quite excited about it too and opened the box. I began charging it but I haven’t set it up yet since it’ll take a while and I didn’t find myself with sufficient free time today.

I prepared a cup noodle and went to my room to watch YouTube videos and an episode of “Umbrella Academy”. My cousin then arrived, it wasn’t the one I’ve been mentioning the last few days but a younger male one, we would see each other and interact often but he’s been having a tough time of it lately at university. I’m not sure how to cheer him up, he’s in poor health and down. I’m thinking of loaning him my 3DS since he said he’s been thinking of getting a handheld console.

The other cousin did arrive soon afterwards and more talking ensued. Hours passed, we watched the Soaps and even an old episode of Pokemon on the TV channel “POP”, it was followed by DragonBall Super. While I may have chosen to spend my time differently today, what happened was for the best. I value my family highly and I’m glad I got to spend lots time with them, it’s important to maintain and improve our relationship.

There wasn’t much time to do anything else significant. I spent around £15 on a Pauper format Magic the Gathering deck to improve the number of events I can attend and the potential friends I can make.

My diet was atrocious, I ate cereal, have a frozen pizza my mother made, 3 doughnuts my mother offered, a slice of cake, noodles and a packet of crisps.

Understanding 

My shift started at 1pm but I still woke up at around 9:30am, I think that means I’m becoming healthier. With that time I did the usual, browse for deals and check out 4chan. I bought a MTG playmat and some black sleeves, I’d like to own sleeves in every colour of the mana pie. I’ve figured out why I’ve become so obsessed with MTG recently, it’s not just because buying things makes me feel good, it’s also because it feels like I’m building something, I can see progress. I know that isn’t healthy but as long as I can get to some events, I can spin it into a positive.

My day at work wasn’t pleasant. I took it slow because I know I can’t be fired unless I massively screw up. I’ve failed my quality assessment again, I need to start using the customers names during calls and just give them what they want. My earphones have been lost, I left them plugged into a computer on Sunday when I left and now they’re gone. I’ve had them a while and spent around £15 on them, they’re Xiaomi branded. There was no one to talk to, I felt most isolated than usual. It didn’t feel good.

On the way home I bought two cups of Japanese style noodles. I feel like they could help me lose weight.

At home, my cousin was around again, she bought cake, I was obliged to take a couple of slices. There was another pleasant surprise, much more unexpected, my sister asked to play MTG with me again. Though she wanted to use the same decks as yesterday, I insisted we instead make fresh decks from my pile of commons. I spent around an hour downstairs with the family before retreating to me room as usual. It was late so not long before I went to bed.

The YouTube video I made a few days ago is included below.

Done buying in, Time to start playing

I woke up at 9am again, less than 8 hours of sleep but my body didn’t want to waste anymore time. The day started normally but at 11am I went to the library to print return postage labels for a couple of tablet cases I bought on eBay, both were of poor quality and being unable to obtain one has resulted in me not using me new tablet at all.

It was boiling outsite, I heavily sweated as I knew I would so I didn’t bother dressing well. At home I packaged my stuff before heading to the post office to send it off. When I returned home I found there was a letter waiting for me, it’s one of the last I’ll be receiving. It contained 2 “Lightning Bolt” Magic the Gathering cards, they were in a condition worse than that which was advertised so I contacted the seller and arranged to return them for a refund. The guy was quite understanding and knew he did wrong. After his I bought my final lot of cards, more Lightning Bolts to replace the ones from this seller and also a pair of expensive ones, more than a person really should be spending but the decks are both entirely complete now and no further purchases are necessary.

During Prime Day I made one purchase on the website, it was a laptop, it’s been refurbished but the specs are great for the money. Once I have a fully functioning keyboard and mouse again, I’ll be able to get right onto everything on my checklist, finding a flat, expanding my wardrobe, arranging FFS and applying to more jobs. I also stocked up on Amazon promotional credit on one of my alternate accounts. I’m expecting to pull in around £25 that I can put towards more card sleeves and maybe a playmat or deck box. It depends on what’s marked as being sold by Amazon.

One of my two youngest sisters was kind enough to play 3 games of Magic the Gathering with me, she seemed to have a good time, I also had fun, I’ve been longing to play an actual game for ages. After this I decided to attend a Standard format Magic the Gathering event using the deck I originally built, I think it might have been unnecessary to make a far more expensive Modern one since this one has held up for 2 months and will last at least another 2. I have next Friday free so I can attend the “Friday Night Magic” event closest to me, they’re not running a Modern format event that day, just standard. To prepare for that I spent £10 to upgrade the deck a little.

I watched WWE Raw, it was a good show. Feels unusual to say that. There was more I planned to do but my cousin visited again and I spent some time downstairs with the family, we watched the Panorama episode about the LGBT education in schools protests that was on last night. My family have changed their minds about going on holiday with my dad to Pakistan and instead want to go somewhere else without him, Rome, Istanbul and Tunisia have been floated as possibilities.

No honour

The day started with me getting up much earlier than I would have liked and then ironing my suit. At 10am I set off for the train station in the blistering hear and was the last to arrive at the hotel for my interview. I call it that but what it really was was a “selection day”, there were 9 people and in the afternoon there would be another 9. The chosen people would return for an interview at a later date.

The group was half white and half Pakistani. When people chose where to split was more or less along racial lines and it became even more obvious when we were split into two groups for an exercise. The white group had an autistic female, a fat white guy, a fat dyke and a not hideous vegan who had and a pretentious name like Clathorpe. My team featured a guy of Benglai decent from Oldham, I liked him. A paki that didn’t talk at all. A skinny white guy with glasses, highly beta an annoying paki female.

I was the only one to wear a suit. The email said to.dress now you would for an interview.

The group exercise involved coming up with our dream hotel. The paki female took control. Everyones ideas were terrible, it was infuriating but I just had to go along with it. The idea was an apple shaped and themed hotel in New York. When presenting the snakey white guy chose to say that the place would be vegan and serve a variety of food. This contradicted what I was going to say about the place only servicing foods containing apples, something which we all agreed on earlier. The paki bitch was the worst though, she presented my idea as her own, even supplying my explanation as if she understood it.

Next were some short interviews, some people had short ones and others long ones. Presumably the people with short interviews wouldn’t be getting called back though I struggle to understand how some people could keep talking for 10 or so minutes. Amyway, I was asked some uninteresting questions and left. Emails were supposed to be coming out later in the day regarding our results but I didn’t get one, this was massively disappointed and left me in a daze for the rest of the day though I didn’t accept my failure until around 6pm.

Prior to this, my cousin visited again, she’s divorcing her husband, it’s for the best, a tough and expensive lesson to learn but it’s been learned and she’s better off for it. We talked and then went to ASDA with my sister where we bought a cheese board, crackers and chutney. We then went home to eat and talk some more, it was nice. My cousin then went to pick up her stuff from the flat with my sisters.

The rest of the day was spent watching WWE Extreme Rules, one of the more engaging PPV events in recent memory. I also looked at MTG cards and opened a dispute against a seller, the guy then contacted me on WhatsApp after getting my phone number from PayPal. He wants me to escalate the case so that eBay will give me a refund and there’s a chance he’ll be able to keep his money. He seems nice and I stressed I think that he’s an honest seller but it was foolish not to send it out by recorded delivery.

I chatted with my 6’2 Quirky Chad friend over KIK about MTG. I felt encouraged to attend a magic event again but once I started searching I quickly realised again that nothing lines up with my days off. I’ll try looking a little further out but I don’t think “Tuesday  Night Magic” is a thing. However, I might book a week off to attend the Magic Grand Prix next month, there’s a £55 entrance fee but it’ll finally allow me to play against other people. There are also side events so I might need to build a pauper deck, those are only £50 at most, that’s the whole point of the format.

Before going to bed my father entered my room and suggested a trip to Pakistan again. He accepted I didn’t want to go this time but he kept pushing for me to get a haircut, offering to pay and go with me, as usual. He said it was embarrassing and that everyone at that wedding was mocking me. I said I’d get a haircut tomorrow morning to shut him up, I lied. He left £20 in my room. I felt like hurting myself throughout this and feel encouraged to find a flat.

The end of another chapter approaches

It feels as if today didn’t even happen, it was so uneventful. I went to work to be greeted by a skeleton crew even more sparse than the day before. I did an hours worth of emails before being placed on the phones, that’s every day for two weeks now, I’m quite resentful about that. I expressed my frustration once the phone lines closed and I was just taking non-live channels, I just chilled, answered some easy emails and listed to Magic the Gathering videos while posting on 4chan. They don’t value the work I can do, I’m just seen as another body so that’s what I’ll give them. Not much longer now until I can say goodbye to this place, got that interview tomorrow, I am concerned I may not appear to be the right for based on appearances but all I can do is give it my all and hope that that I was the only one that applied.

At home I sat with the family for a little while, my cousin was visiting again. I sat in front of the heater, my mother suggested I might be anemic, as she has done previously. I recalled being tested for it last year, the chink doctor checked my blood pressure and weight. My mother and cousin quickly pointed out that that’s not how you’d check for anaemia (Iron deficiency). I’ll make an appointment with my GP tomorrow.

My father is trying to get everyone to go to Pakistan, he doesn’t understand how significant 2 weeks holiday is when you’re working and why people wouldn’t want to waste it in that place. I tried explaining this to my father but he insisted that Pakistan was the greatest country in the world, that there were many spectacular places there and that many people were flocking to go on holiday. One of the strangest comments was about how many Chinese people there are now and I think he said there were China towns. He got angry when my youngest sister refused to go, he said it was her choice but then he wouldn’t give her any money to go on holidays elsewhere. She remarked that he didn’t do that anyway.

While I also declined, I might change my mind. If I don’t get that job, I might as well just quit and go to Pakistan to get my head sorted. I could stay there for weeks, there’s nothing to come back to.

I’ve researched the Turkish surgeon who I was planning on getting FFS with, his reviews are poor, even people who wanted regular nose jobs have complained. I don’t think he specialises in FFS and his suggestions of fillers instead of surgery are not the norm and just terribly lazy.

Fillers

I woke up early since the plastic surgeons assistant said they’d call me again. I was disappointed with what I heard, I wanted brow reduction but instead she suggested a forehead filler to make it rounder, it made sense but it’s not the norm, it’s the second time that a simpler option has been offered. I also learned that a sliding ginoplasty would be more suitable for my chin than a chin filler. The only part of this package that appeals to me is the nose job and it’s still a decent price just just for that.

I ate two breakfasts and skipped lunch. Work was a drag, I was on the phones for 5 hours.I spent a lot more time than usual posting on 4chan, it was /mtfg/ that provided insight into the surgeries I was getting. 

At home some more Magic the Gathering cards were waiting for me. I haven’t bought any new ones I a short while but I’ve got my eyes on a couple.