Tomorrow Starts Today

I woke up at 11, a bit early, I really could have done with more sleep but I was dehydrated so remaining in bed was uncomfortable. Once I was up, it was time for me to expel what was left of my vidya collection. CEX took “Ni no Kuni 2” for £10 (great considering I bought it for £12) and “Final Fantasy XIII” for 60p. The transaction wasn’t immediate though, I had to travel to the local library through the snow and ice in order to print off a postage label. On my trip I slipped, landing on my bum and hands, my bum was fine but my hands were sore for a while.

The town centre was crawling with the usual sixth form pakis and out-of-place whites. The pakis were infesting the local chicken shops and I assume most of the white students were using the computer labs to study or just staying indoors to remain safe. Back at home I got comfy for a bit before setting out again to pick up some razor blades, on the way I played Pokemon GO, picked up a couple new ones. After recovering at home again I went to the post office to send off my video games, leaving me with nothing to insert into my PlayStation 3 or 4 (apart from Fallout 4 which isn’t my type of game at all).

The rest of the day was quite boring, I showered, it felt invigorating, then I used a strip on my nose to clean out my pores. For an hour or so I spoke to my Discord friend.

Half of my jaw still hurts, I read up on possible causes and treatments, I think the most likely cause is a sinus infection and the treatment I’m going for is rubbing the affected area. The pain makes it difficult to eat, each bit causes pain, there is no minimum amount I can widen my mouth to avoid any level of discomfort. Despite this, my eating habits haven’t been curtailed much, the agony is worth the delight that food brings. After slowly eating my morning cereal, I ate some discounted sandwiches my mother bought from Marks & Spencer’s. One set were salmon & cucumber, the other were tuna & sweetcorn.

My fathers new SIM is working correctly now.

Considering buying model building kits, warships are appealing but Gundams are cheap.

No more vidya (for real)

I woke up early to help my dad sort out his SIM issues, I did this voluntarily. Got less than 8 hours of sleep. After calling customer service it was back to “Ni no Kuni “, I played for 10 hours, the investment paid off as I received a platinum trophy for my troubles. Now that I’m done with it and have no more video games i my possession (apart from “Fallout 4” which I’m not interested in), I can focus on other projects from tomorrow.

My jaw on one side of my face hurts and feels slightly swollen, the pain extends to my ear. I’m not sure if the cause is simply me having slept in a funny position or having to hear the loud PlayStation 4 fan constantly for the last few days.

I finally opened up the packages containing my trainers and jacket. All of them fit me well, I’m a size 7 unisex and size 8 womens when it comes to trainers. The jacket is a size 12, it mostly fits well but is a bit loose towards the bottom, though after having checked some pictures, it seems it’s supposed to be that way. I would have preferred a tighter fit but I can’t complain since the tightness around the bust region shows off my breasts. The ottoman arrived today, the base is of mediocre quality but the top is superb, not just for the price. Tomorrow, I’ll put things in there, not sure what though, the main reason I bought it was so I could place it next to my bed to make it easier for me to grab my water bottle.

After finishing with vidya, I chatted with my Discord pals into the night.

I swear, last one

Ni no Kuni 2 all day. The good news is that I’m only one trophy away from the platinum, the bad news is that I need to grind to level 99 (currently at 84). If I play it all day again tomorrow I should be done with it there and then. After that, I can push forward with personal development and preparation for my new job.

I went outside in the morning to collect a delivery from the post office, my River Island shoes. It was snowing while I was travelling and a few hours later the streets were covered in snow but it didn’t evoke a reaction in me as a I was too absorbed in the video game.

My father is having issues with his new SIM provider. He can make calls but some people can’t call him. Naturally he wants me to fix it and call customer service on his behalf (while he stands a few feet away from me), this triggers me to know end and I constantly scream “dirty, stupid, paki bastard”. I do feel bad for him but it’s poetic, he wanted me to get him a new SIM deal, cancel the old one, port his old number over and now he’s feeling the pain I felt. Declaring “I don’t know” doesn’t feel as good as it used to since now I feel some guilt, I shouldn’t though as I’ve done nothing wrong.

Got a job, bitches

As soon as the day began I hopped on my PlayStation 4 to play Ni no Kuni 2 for over 4 hours. I’ve gotten to the point just before the final dungeon and cleared over 150 of the side quests. There’s still quite a lot of content left though, could still be playing this game until the weekend. I did take a break to shower and wash my hair, there was another to eat but that was all.

At 7pm I received a text from one of my Discord pals, he asked if I was still planning on performing a radio show tonight, I told him that I hadn’t done enough preparation and apologised. I then turned my laptop on for the first time today in order to apologise to the rest of the Discord crew personally. It was then that another “pal” asked the same questions, he lowered my perceived expectations and also posted an image featuring me, it made me feel guilty so I agreed to do the show.

Less than 20 minutes later, I was live. I had a few bullet points, topics I wanted to discuss but they weren’t well enough formed due to my minimal preparation. Ended up just listing things that were white or paki. When I got really stuck I just went through my emails, though I was glad to share one particular email with the listeners. My most recent interview was a success and I’ll hear more in a week or two. Feels good, an excuse to chill out for a while.

After the half time break, the “pal” who convinced me to do the show, brought on an enemy of mine, “Yazim”, a paki from the Birmingham meetup who took pictures of people without their consent. I saw it coming but hoped for the best, just means I have one less friend than I thought. The conversation with him on the radio show was awkward since I didn’t want to talk to him at all. I regret calling him “fat” and “paki Mario” though, those comments were cruel and not reflective of me as a person, I would never insult someones appearance. There is also nothing wrong with his appearance. I am sorry, that was wrong of me.

I closed the day by playing more Ni no Kuni 2.

A black ottoman

Just more vidya and I overate when staying up late to watch “The Royal Rumble”.

I haven’t replied to the quirky guys message (yet?). The idea terrifies me as the outcome of my actions is unknown.

I bought an ottoman for £13 on Amazon and later restocked on Estrogen.

My father has gotten himself some life insurance, not a clue what prompted this. We also discussed the Pakistani economy, I blew his mind when I informed him the reason paki banks offer 80% interest is because the paki rupee is at a 10 year low.

The Horror

I woke up at noon and continued where I left off yesterday, playing “Ni no Kuni 2”, eventually I took a break to see my family who were downstairs eating a portion of chips and samosas. I ate a few chips and then left due to abuse from my sisters. I continued to play my video game for the remainder of the day as I’m still sitting out a 4chan ban.

I did have a front row ticket to see “The Rocky Horror Show” but opted against attending, the possibility of audience engagement terrified me.

Some packages arrived but I haven’t opened them up yet

I don’t expect the coming days to be much different, I’ll continue to play “Ni no Kuni 2” until the /britfeel/ meetup next week.

One up, three downs

The day started promisingly, I woke up at 10am feeling well rested. I did most of the usual things apart from brush my teeth as my electric toothbrush needed charging. I had an interview to attend, I wasn’t too excited or anxious, I didn’t care about it at all, it was at, what I assume was, a paki call centre, I didn’t have to make any effort and I should get the gig. So I dressed smart casual as the email suggested (bra, female t-shirt, female shirt, blue slim fit guy jeans and female trainers), I then boarded the bus for my destination.

On my way to the office, I saw my mother sitting on a bench, eating a McFlurry, she had chosen to come into town for a bit of shopping. We spoke for a bit, I let her know that I could stay as I had an appointment to keep. During the conversation she kept staring at my chest, I didn’t understand at the time but an hour later it became apparent that the reason was the bra “enhancing” my chest.

I found the office easily enough, I had to wait a short while since I arrived early. Got escorted to a meeting room by a large man in his 30s. The office resembled my former place of employ, not in terms of layout, but the people, there were those with face piercings and green hair, mostly white. There were perhaps around 3 pakis. Perfect. The interview was conducted my the aforementioned white guy and a woman with face piercings, she was currently doing customer service over the phone but expressed an interested in progressing so was sitting in. They told me they were looking for personality and that this was supposed to be a group interview but the other people who were supposed to attend, cancelled. They made it clear that I was at an advantage and would need to essentially give them a reason not to hire me. They asked awkward questions such as “how would your best friend describe you”, “what type of people grind your gears” and “give us 3 facts, 2 lies and 1 truth”. I was able to make up for this though with a written and typing exercise. On the way out, I felt people were staring at me. Also feel the interviewers were initially excited to meet me but I let them down. Not stopping me from already imagining I work there.

At home I treated myself to another burger meal. The staff were rude to me again, they didn’t have anyone at the counter initially and then when someone did appear they answered the telephone to take an order instead of listening to what I had to say. It’s nonsensical, I may as well call while in the store if I want faster service. I bought the cheapest burger on the menu and slowly paid for it, a coin at a time, on the counter, not his hand. The burger was awful.

I played “Ni no Kuni 2” for around 3 hours, it feels like an older Dragon Quest game. Later I chatted to my “virtual bf” on Discord, he made it clear we’re not an item and he I should pursue other relationships.

The real kicker came when I turned my PS4 on again. The quirky guy emailed me. He works for the civil service now, that’s where I was supposed to be working too, he asked what department I was in as he couldn’t find my name within the list of email addresses. I’m not sure on my next move, the easiest option would be to delete him and move on, forget him, act as if the person who, earlier in the day during the interview, I pretended was my best friend. Alternatively, I can be completely honest, it’s logical, I have nothing to lose and he deserves a response since he still thinks about me. I’m still “appearing offline” so I could also just ignore him but that would be truly pathetic. On a side-note, he’s currently playing Resident Evil 2.

I also played some Pokemon GO since an event is currently running. Managed to snag a few Pokemon missing from my Pokedex.

Virtual bf

I woke up just before noon and quickly proceeded to play Ni no Kuni 2, it’s clear that the game is very long. Just as well since there’s nothing else special out there. When I got some time away from the game, I took a few pictures for a guy I’m talking to on Discord, he has expressed that he likes me, romantically, I don’t know if he’s screwing with me but I appreciate his words. We’ve been spending at least an hour talking to each other for the last few days now.

As a treat, I went out to Chunky Chicken for a burger meal, the young, smug, paki staff still get under my skin, I shouldn’t go there again but I enjoy the quality of their fries. This, however, will be the final time I visit this paki establishment.

I’ve got an interview tomorrow. This one is lower tier than the rest, I can’t screw it up, I probably already have the job by virtue of being a native English speaker.

Disappointed to see the price of “Ni no Kuni 2” has now dropped £2.00 to £9.95.

Clothes Shopping

My sleep pattern has shifted back to “normal”, I woke up at noon but that didn’t stop me being productive. I started by giving 50% of my male clothes to my mother, so she could then give them to charity. Following this I started shopping for new womens clothes and shoes, ended up spending over £100 and then even more on vitamins/beauty products. I was disappointed that a couple of jackets I had my eyes on over the last few days were now out of stock, I settled for getting one in a different colour.

I’ve finally accepted that I haven’t got the job I interviewed for 2 weeks ago, a massive kick to the ego. All I’ve got in play now is an interview for a low tier call centre gig on Friday.

At midday, there wasn’t anything pressing to do so I opened up my copy of “Ni No Kuni 2”, played it for 3 hours throughout the day, it’s OK.

I’m still talking to friends on Discord a fair bit, there’s this one guy in particular I spend over an hour with. I’ve promised him a photo, so I’m going to clean up tomorrow.

My father provided me with an interesting story that changed my outlook on the world mildly. He returned home furious that a cashier at a gas station refused to take change and wanted confirmation that the cashier was legally obligated to take the payment in 20 pence coins. I confirmed that was the case, as long as he already filled his tank before attempting to pay. I’m not sure what he did in that situation but I advised him to go back to that gas station and pay in the smallest change he has, if the guy refuses to take the coins, then just leave them on the desk before leaving.

I FEEL CUTE

I went to sleep at 11pm last night and woke up today was 7:50am, I didn’t feel tired at all. So I went through the same routine as yesterday, getting dressed, eating and grooming. I left a little late since I didn’t want to arrive exactly when the shop opened, I have it 5 minutes and arrived at say 9:15am.

There was no hesitation today, there was only one hairdresser in (the others presumably running late due to the unexpected snowy weather) and one customer, a man, who was almost finished with his cut. When the woman acknowledged me (older, plump), I said I’d like my hair shorter, above the shoulders but below the ears and that I want to be able to keep a fringe. I asked if that was enough to go off of, she said that was fine and got to work.

While my glasses were off during the chopfest, once she had placed slips on my hair and parted it, it actually looked quite nice, as if I didn’t need a haircut at all and instead just needed to learn how to take care of myself. She asked about layering and I said I didn’t know what that was, she explained and I went for it, she also asked about thinning my hair since it’s so thick, again I was happy for this to take place though at the end of the cut she asked if I wanted any more off, I declined, felt it was enough, don’t want to make any mistakes I can’t take back.

The haircut didn’t last too long and I was happy with the result, it’s quite short but when I look at myself, the only word that comes to mind is “CUTE”. Even though she gave me a side fringe instead of a forehead one, I’m still overjoyed at how much better I look. I’ll need to remember to part it correctly. It cost £7.00.

I got an early start but didn’t do much else with the day, too much time for someone like me. I posted off a couple of video games I sold and went into town again for envelopes and lip balm. At home I watched the film “Split” on Netflix, played an hour of “Fallout 4” and removed all the clothes from my wardrobe to sort into piles. There a whole heap I plan to destroy or give to charity. Tomorrow I’ll start building up my wardrobe with clothes that reflect my gender.

Lost some of my new friends on Discord after the paki in charge kicked me out of the group. He didn’t like being called out apparently. However, a new Discord group was started later in the day and it’s just as good, most people in the old one just lurked anyway.