The train to work was packed, it’s only going to get worse as the year continues, might need to start taking an earlier one. There were a couple of women who triggered my dysphoria today and a paki female wearing a scarf, reading SnK motion manga. Poor taste but I didn’t know people like that were into manga, if I was interested in leading a normal life, I probably could have married her or something.
I also got into an argument with the female African attending the ticket gate, the woman in front of me wasn’t asked to show her ticket, seemed like a mate, just greated her. I walked passed her, she was pissed, I pointed out the woman in front of me didn’t show her ticket and then walked on. Puzzled as to why this rail service is hiring so many foreigners.
Didn’t talk much at work, had a fair few decent interactions with the older guy. I was on the phones, feel like I this was a mistake, how can other people be assigned to emails when I’m the one who actually passed the assessment and should be starting the new job soon.
Feeling low on energy. I should ask for antidepressants again but I can’t.
My sister was cruel to me again, the usual about me being useless, not doing anything with my life and relying on mummy forever. This continues to get me down and makes me feel like killing myself.
Not bought anything to treat myself for a while, I’ll put vidya on hold after Persona 5, it’s just not constructive, a distraction and I don’t get to play much.