Day off, spent playing Persona 5 again, I’m delaying the ending in order to grind money/exp for the platinum trophy. I did step out shortly to renew my season ticket and return some Amazon clothes in the wrong size. I had a painful exchange with the man at the ticketing desk, he was just trying to be helpful by relaying information on the strike and I was slow to understand the implications so I was aggressive, I questioned why he was telling me this.
At home my mother bought me a cake and stuck up some “congratulations” banners in order to celebrate my new job, it’s nice that she’s making an effort and trying to express love but this would have meant more to me if I was still a child. She gifted me a photo album, pics from my youth mostly, the earlier pictures made me upset, I wondered about the hopes of those around me and how I’ve disappointed them, also seeing my mother and other family when they were younger saddens me, I can only imagine they’ve experienced similar misery to myself.
The images of an older me were just repulsive, I was clearly overweight and had facial hair. Short hair in all pics was also triggering. There was one recent picture of me and it confirmed that I’m much happier with the new/real me. I should start dieting again though. No more lunch, no excuses.
Bought some Converse trainers (Chuck, All-Star, Oxford).
Dragonball Xenoverse 2 should be my next game but I won’t buy it anytime soon.