I got more sleep this time around and was nearly sufficiently refreshed when waking up for another day of of toil. Within 40 minutes there was enough time to shower, groom, dress and everything else necessary to get off to a good start apart from remembering to take my E. On the way to work I listened to Iron Maiden.
Once I arrived I discovered that one of the three white guys has possibly quit. One of the other white guys is POSSIBLY going to be a manager after training due to that being his position before his department got outsourced/shut down or something else. While we were assigned an hour to do 20 minutes worth of work, the playlist we assembled yesterday was playing in the background. The white guy who “bullied”/bantered me yesterday was bemoaning the lack of quality music, I responded that “Wicker Man” should be on soon, to my horror he had never even heard of the song, he didn’t even listen to Iron Maiden and “rock music” was apparently not his thing. If that wasn’t bad enough, his genre is “UK Grime”.
When my song finally played, I asked that the volume be turned up. This made the woman in charge of training aware that I was a metal/Iron Maiden fan and anyone else who was listening. When the song ended, people remarked how glad they were it was over and then the mixed race guy who sits next to me made everyone aware that it was mine. Everyone else was shocked, one said that she’d have never guessed that out of everyone there I’d be the metal head. Got asked a few questions and answered them unconvincingly, iirc it was listing two bands and stating that the louder songs were part of a subgenre of metal (didn’t use the term “thrash metal”). Conclusion though is that they believe I like metal and that I’m unique/interesting since no one else in the room is fan of metal.
During lunch I chose to sit with a paki and converse with him, it was unintimidating as I noticed that both today and yesterday, he was alone. I started by noting how crap the training process was and then he brought up vidya and anime. He hasn’t played games like Final Fantasy XV and God of War but was interested in hearing me talking about them. His taste in anime was in a word “modern”, he likes Attack on Titan and Tokyo Ghoul, I had stuff to say and more, he weirdly cut the discussion short by letting me know our lunch was over. Unlike the other pakis, he’s from a city, not a town, so he’s well-spoken. Not a fan of his humour, during “class” he made jokes where the punchline half the time was just him doing a “white voice”. Still more similar to me than any of the others. He assumed my favourite band was Iron Maiden, just like the quirky guy, perhaps the most flattering thing I’ve heard while working here.
Throughout the day I got a lot of laughs. The white guy attempted to fist bump me a couple of times and the second time told me off for not “tensing up”. I also overreacted when during a quiz I got a question wrong, I threw my notebook to the ground and said “fuck”, prior to getting the question incorrect I also said that it was an easy one. When I’d calmed down and turned my chair back around to face the group, the training lady said “Listens to Iron Maiden and attacks books, not so Mr Innocent afterall”.
The white guy made a joke about my gender saying “women often lie about their age”, this was in a group setting. He also calls me “big man”, I don’t know what exactly this is supposed to mean. The older woman in our group (she’s hilarious) called me tall, I insisted I was average height but she stood her ground.
I’ve said it before but this is proof, I am comfortable in my skin and no longer overly nervous around new people. My heart no longer starts beating quickly and I’m not the omega in group settings, I get attention and am liked.
Only negative is that I laugh at myself too much sometimes, it comes across weird. Nothing compares to finding something amusing in the real world. I also clammed up when the topic of sex and gfs was brought up. The paki female sat next to me when the seating plan was shuffled, she was talkative but I came across as disinterested, probably because I was but the problem being it was too obvious. She was asking for help but also flaunting her unintelligent, I don’t like that quality, a person needs to make an attempt to resolve things themselves before asking for assistance, how else can they know they are incapable. It may also be that I didn’t want to feel “used”, I’m happy to offer help but I don’t want to be put in the position where I’m forced to provide it, reminds me of my father. However, we did hit it off when talking about my hometown being crap, she even said there were too many “Asians”, didn’t know what to say other than rephrase that the place sucked. She also noted like many before that I don’t sound like I’m from the town I’m from, when prompted to be more specific she said I sounded posh.
A paki offered to take me to the barbers to get my haircut. Strange that he would parrot my father but it reinforced my opinion that pakis have little individuality.
On the way home yesterday, I saw some young people, 3 males and 1 female wearing denim waistcoats with KISS on the back.