WAR Nurmagomedov

I stayed up until 7am to watch UFC 229 and the post-fight stuff, the actual fight had me excited, my heart was beating quickly during the main event, I wanted to see the good guy win for once. After it was over, I got to see a unique spectacle, it was something no one had ever seen before or will ever see again, in my opinion it was a more worthwhile sight/experience than viewing historical landmarks when travelling.

Went to sleep after it appeared no further information would be revealed immediately after the happenings. After around 6 hours I woke up and got on with the day which this time meant posting about the UFC event, turns out no charges were pressed, again, happy to see the good guys win. I’m self inserting a bit admittedly.

Planning on selling some old PS3 games that I have lying around for a a pittance. They have no value to me.

I start my new job tomorrow, not really thinking about it, first 3 weeks are “classroom” so an easy enough start, not like I can do much to prepare. I hope there are more people in the training group than the 4 I’ve already met.

The sin of sleep

It seems I can’t go a day without my sleep being interrupted by a phone call. This time it was the laser clinic, my technician is taking an “emergency holiday”, this saved me the trouble of calling her since I couldn’t do that date now anyway due to my new job. Pushed it back 2 weeks.

At 3pm I went to the library to print my employment contract. Caught the eyes of the guy sitting at the computer opposite me, he needed help claiming benefits but the guy who worked at the library couldn’t help him, I’m not sure what his title is exactly because he shouldn’t really be expected to anything more than help with technical issues.

Back at home I finished playing Yakuza 0. It will leave no lasting impression on me. Might stop playing vidya for a while now, the only other games I want to say I played are “Spider-man” and perhaps “Resident Evil 7”, need to finish the story mode in Monster Hunter too.

Staying up late to watch UFC 229. It’s been ages since I’ve watched a full UFC card, my mind often drifts and imagines how much better the experience would be with friends.

Ate cereal, hummus and just before the UFC prelims starting – a burger meal. Watched WWE Super Show Down too, just skimmed it really, only watched the final match in full, it was as underwhelming as expected. To get the burger I ventured outside just before midnight, the streets were near silent and dead, I jumped at shadows and the sound of leaves rustling more than once.

I’m nervous about starting my new job on Monday, trying not to think about it.

Today I’m a Yakuza

Since I’m going to start working on Monday, I feel I can waste another day, I won’t get freedom like this for a while. Got woken up again by my new employers, not sure what they wanted because I cut the guy off when I said that I hadn’t received a particular email. I’ve spoken to this guy two or three times now, he seems nice.

I played several chapters of Yakuza 0, only three more to go, should be finished tomorrow. The story picked up and then disappointed though this won’t be the last Yakuza I play since I hear Yakuza Kiwami will be on PSN Plus next month. It’s more like watching a television series than playing a game.

At night I went out for some hummus and wraps. My mother warned me against travelling at night, I recently learned that the nearby paki area has a reputation for drugs and violence. Ignoring that I still would have chosen to avoid the park area as it is spooky during the night. On my way back I encountered two drunk men and a woman, one of the men was taking a piss in the corner and the woman spoke to me, something about a song being stuck in her head because the urinating man had been singing it all night.

Tomorrow I’ll wake up early enough to print off a copy of my employment contract and then perhaps take a midday nap so I can watch the entirety of UFC 229 live.

I’m not thinking too far ahead, the furthest my thoughts travel is working alongside my new colleagues. Over the last two years I’ve picked up enough that I don’t think I’ll need to lie when communicating with others.

Hitting the hay at 5am.

Another nul day

Not sure when I woke up today, it doesn’t really matter. Played some Yakuza and Hearthstone again, guess I could say I’m enjoying the last of my days as a NEET though it’s possible I might end up being thrust back here once the DBS clears.

My complaint was answered, it’s a thorough response but there’s no harm in fighting back a little. I thought I had gotten over losing out on that gig but when the email came through the band aid was ripped off, the healing process must begin again.

My case worker has agreed to push back my appointment to the end of the month.

It’s difficult to start the day when I wake so late.

I’m trying to find stuff to engage my brain but it’s proving difficult, I keep going back to what I know, what feels comfortable. “New” is still something I find threatening.

Tomorrow I’ll leave the house since I need to print off my employment contact. Might go to ASDA to buy hummus. Considering applying to more jobs.

The easiest debt

I woke up at 3pm, guess that was me paying off my sleep debt. I felt pretty refreshed. Played Yakuza 0 and Hearthstone. At night my favourite show, The Apprentice, started airing again. Not sure what happened between playing Yakuza and watching The Apprentice.

Trying to fix the sleep pattern again but it’s 2am now. Still strange that I’ve only spent 11 hours awake.

Can’t keep me down

Once again I was awoken by a my phone ringing, I dread I may never again be able to sleep past noon. Unlike yesterday, today I was greeting my kind news, the job I interviewed for last week has decided to take me on. The DBS check is still pending but I don’t know if my record will be a deal breaker, I start next week so it won’t be completed until I have my feet under the table. The first call was just to say they emailed me the various shift patterns available and once I replied to that email, I was called back with more info including my salary. While the role is salaried, it works out at significantly more per hour than my previous gig so I can count this as progress.

I was slow to process the information I was receiving so stated I didn’t need to request any holidays. I’ll just have to call in sick on the day of my show next month. Getting in touch with my case worker too but he doesn’t reply to texts.

Regarding the job, I’ll hope for the best and try not to think about the worst, just keep myself grounded, still got other job applications pending. I am pleased.

4chan was down for almost the entire day so I spent the day playing Hearthstone/Magic again but diversified it a bit by reading a couple of magazines and putting the football on in the background. At night I also played Yakuza 0 for an hour, the story is still engaging but that’s all. Noticed quirky guy was “last online” 3 days ago, I’m still marked as always showing offline. I wonder if they’ve all forgotten about me yet? I still daydream about being back there, just me doing something to get everyones attention and earning a laugh.

Stuck up a poster from NEO magazine (Cardfight Vanguard) and entered a competition, bit disappointed that this magazine always had competitions but because I haven’t been reading them I’ve missed out. The prize is a Higurashi season 1 box set (DVD).

Finding my place in the world

My sleep was interrupted twice by calls from some of the largest legal firms in the country, they just called to let me know that they couldn’t help since I was sentenced in Scotland and they know nothing about Scots Law. I received a two emails from Scottish solicitors (one being the one who represented me), also just telling me that they’re unable to help, it appears the information I found about appealing only applies to England and Wales. There’s still one option available to me but I’ll need to provide “extenuating circumstances” as to why I didn’t appeal and then claim there was a miscarriage of justice.

The day was a waste, I watched John Oliver and various YouTube videos while playing Hearthstone and Magic the Gathering, got good at both again. Haven’t heard back from any more of the jobs I applied to or that complaint I put through. I’ll chase both tomorrow.

Only spoke to my mother.

My mirror fell of the wall but didn’t break.

Feel as if there;s a fog in my head and I need to do something to shake it off, not sure what that something is. In addition to becoming a ticket tout I’m also considering screenwriting again.

I declare WAR

I went for a walk into the town centre to buy “Coke Zero” from Iceland, now knowing its supply is limited, I will savour every drop. I played Pokemon GO and I’m sure I got some strange looks, didn’t care too much, there existence and opinions are meaningless to me. The drinks came to a cost of £1 per 1.25 litres, it’s a fair price and I don’t feel as if I’m being extorted. On the way back I finally hatched one of the regional Pokemon, a Kangaskhan.

Not much happened during the middle part of the day other than me watching SNL and playing the Magic the Gathering Arena Online Beta. It’s not as fun/chilled out as Hearthstone.

A brainwave struck me during the night, my sentence not only include a 12 month community supervision order but also a 5 year restriction order. I didn’t think too much about the restriction order before as I felt as if the supervision order was the “main” part of the sentence but this now means that I won’t pass a DBS check for another 4 years which means I may be NEET for a long time to come. This is unacceptable so I went ahead and did some research, it appears I can still appeal but an application will now need to be made to the high court since I’m outside the time limit. I’ve gone ahead and contacted several law firms, this is what I should have done right from the beginning instead of relying on a law firm that comprises of exactly 2 people.

I’m not putting all my in the above basket, applied for another job today too. I’ve got a good feeling about this one, it’s a local place, seems comfy but I’ve never seen a non-white work there before.

The day flies when you’re not alone

Today was full of social interaction though only with members of my extended family. I woke up slightly after noon, I was the only person at home but was soon disrupted from checking my emails by a knock on the door, it was my uncle. We talked about very general stuff, put on Football Focus in the background and later the football match between West Ham & Manchester United. My mum later arrived back home, she brought a couple of sandwiches, I overate, my daily calorie intake within a couple of hours.

Another uncle arrived shortly after, he recently bought a large collection of DVDs for a low price and asked if I’d be interested in claiming any. He had other stuff to do so left quickly.

I showered and exfoliated. Then I chose to set of to my aunts house, she asked me a while ago to pop by since I rarely do. On the way I played Pokemon GO, very close to getting Serebii now, even made an “excellent curveball throw”. My cousins were at my aunts house, one of them was celebrating a birthday, another had travelled from several towns over to visit, I rarely see him anymore. I’d forgotten about the birthday, there was a funny moment when he went into another room and I tried to call him to wish him a happy birthday but he rejected the call. I became the centre of attention, perhaps overacted to a few things. My cousin who was visiting was with his gf, I don’t like her so didn’t even look her way though I spotted she had yellow Vans, a different style to the ones I wanted though. The birthday cousin quickly left the building to go hang out with his friends. Another cousin invited herself on to my trip to London in 2 weeks, then my aunt and then another cousin. Instead of having just an hour there, I’m going to be making a full day of it. I would have preferred something easier but at least now I’ll get to see Elizabeth Tower and all the other major sights. There was some comfortableness when one cousin left and insisted on taking a childhood photo with her, she’s in a relationship with a man who is clearly a con artist. It devolved into an argument, she is blindly infatuated with the guy though he doesn’t seem to have much going for him. Of the various scams he’s pulling and has already pulled on her, the one that piqued my interest is that he prospective father-in-law requested photographs of her, one in western clothing and one in Pakistani clothing, both against white backgrounds, she has supplied the pictures. The family are also requesting photos of her and her siblings as children. I may contact the police for assistance as I am concerned, not sure what sort of scam this relates to.

Went to my grandmothers after this to visit my uncle, picked out some DVDs (Shameless season 1-3, Spider-man 1-3, Tremors, Godzilla and there might have been a couple more. I then went downstairs to spend some time with my grandmother, she was happy to see me, I ate food she had prepared earlier (chicken curry and frozen pizzas). Found out Coke Zero has been discontinued in the UK and what I’ve been drinking the last few months was actually “Coke – Zero Sugar”. Thought it tasted different. There’s word that some stores in town still have supplies of Coke Zero, I’ll pay a visit tomorrow.

I’ve put on weight, I’ve ignored the problem for too long I need to get back into the mentality of weighing myself every day.

There was discussion throughout the day about the paki couple who were arrested at a supermarket for being told they could not buy 50 bottles of water on special offer. Half the family thinks they chimped out and deserved what happened to them, the other half think it was racist. There will be a protest soon, could lead to more, will follow with intrigue.

I had a ticket for a Man City football game today but chose not to bother attending, it’s just too much hassle, the novelty is fun once in a while but not as a regular activity.

Been thinking about stuff and now I can see the quirky guy didn’t ask to hang out with the androgynous guy, the androgynous guy asked to hang out with him. So quirky guy didn’t spurn me in favour of someone else, it really was just that someone else took an initiative that I didn’t. It’s a shame that I did wind myself up over this for a lengthy period back then, makes me wonder if there were other instances that my vision was clouded.

Not the right one

I didn’t get the promised call from the place I applied to. Guess that means the DBS came back and they’re aware of my unspent conviction. They might just be planning on ignoring and forgetting me. Not optimistic about this one so, I’ll just assume I didn’t get it.

Woke up early for the Metallica general sale but wasn’t able to secure better tickets so left it, I’m surprised how well the show has sold.

Played Pokemon GO, didn’t 2 laps around the town hall, it was warm but I put my hood on and looked like a creep. Trying to fix the location spoofing app on my phone so I can avoid the humiliation of leaving my bedroom in the future. The worst part is encountering other possible Pokemon GO players and swiftly putting my own phone away.

Read some HxH, almost caught up, it’s not holding my interest well. Nothing is happening. Mostly just watched YouTube videos again, only interesting watchs were regarding the YuGiOh community being “toxic” and something from the only popular paki YouTuber.

Got a ticket for a football game tomorrow but I won’t attend, I’d rather sleep for longer after having to wake up early the last 2 days.

My joints hurt.