I had swapped shifts with another guy today, the one I’d possibly heard several months ago use the term “paki”. Just did it for a lie-in and to get in another persons good graces. The quirky guy who I sit with is highly talkative, there were some minor conversations which took place before the late part of the shift commenced about mostly trivial subjects but also his interview for an internal promotion, he thinks he did badly and he’s apparently not as confident as he appears to me. Initially I encouraged him but by the end of it, I let him know he was partly at fault. During this time I feel I conversed in a normal way, though mostly reactionary.
After everyone on the early shifts had gone home and it was just me and the quirky guy at our desk, he became even more talkative, he must have gone on for 2 hours or so, just stories from his life and various conversation starters. I tried to maintain the interactions by asking questions but I wasn’t interested and knew little about the topics he brought up. He had “funny” stories but I couldn’t even muster a fake smile. He had “gross” stories, these actually made me feel like throwing up and I had to ask him to stop. He tips his fedora hard and I called him out on this, his strong opinions on the Catholic church and paedophilia are just yesterdays news.
I shared extremely little about myself, none of it interesting, my limited knowledge of Black Sabbath led to a back and forth though.
He earned my ire when he asked if I new a nearby bar but stopped himself with “oh, you don’t drink”, I corrected him but then he responded with “but you’ve never gone out” or something along those lines, not strictly true but I agreed, I was put out by his assumption. I was more aggressive in shutting him down after that since his comments made it quite clear how he viewed me. My opinion of him has plummeted, I don’t know why he even bothered to speak to me unless he, as I suspect based on his obnoxious statements, has Aspergers or something similar. I’m also displeased that he doesn’t remember any f our previous conversations, he asked for my age again, I refused to tell him, he asked I knew how old he was, I answered and said that “some of us listen”. A few other conversations were repeated from previous encounters also. He taught me a lesson, we’re not the same and I should stop viewing myself as such. I’m not really sure who I am now, that’s just another something I need to figure out.
The female who he used to sit next to and got the promotion made an appearance and seemed to coach him while he hit the target on emails. One of them said “could you imagine [me] with a beard” and then “can you even grow one?”, I responded affirmatively to which the female said I looked very smooth. I was then asked which razor I used and mumbled “Gillette” and looked away.
A brown male approached me during my lunch break on the streets, he made small talk, invited me for coffee and asked what I thought of the area, as I tried to escape he asked for a job. I suggested getting some training from the Job Centre.
Saw a disabled kid with their father on my way home, pakis, interesting feelings, if they weren’t pakis inbreeding then the kid wouln’t be disabled but the father seemed to love the son.
Stayed awake past midnight, just posting, read Kaiji and playing Hearhtstone.