Driving and work

For the first time in a while, I can say things have been mildly eventful since my last entry, though my memory is hazy. I started taking driving lessons again, the instructor is a friendly Pakistani, he is teaching me very slowly but I am happy with that, better a nice but ineffectual instructor than someone who is mean. I am expecting this to take around 20 lessons, I am not good at driving, it doesn’t come naturally. An automatic might overall be easier but it is posing its own challenges, it’s very different to a manual, unless I’m braking, it moves forward.

My father was causing me mental anguish last week but it’s been fine this week. Just ready for him to explode again.

Issues at work have arisen, a large number of documents are missing and my work is being reviewed, I’ve been told not to worry and that no one is blaming me, I am concerned but I know I can’t be fired until a replacement is found.

I think I might be done with video games for a while, or will be in the near future for a while, Lost Judgment is releasing next week afterall. I also bought a Nintendo Switch for the release of Pokemon Diamond in November, I’ll also be using it to play Bayonetta 2, the sequel to one of my favourite games of all time. That works out to perhaps 1 video game a month. Possibly Pokemon Legends Arceus in January but I am not that eager to play that, what I can say for certain is that the PS5 gaming will slow, ignoring upcoming games I only have a passing interest in Final Fantasy 14, Death Stranding, WatchDogs Legion (exploring modern day London) and Tales of Arise.

One of my two youngest sisters has gone to London for work, it just leaves my parents and the oldest of my sisters here though she doesn’t ever seem to actually be home.

Hades

Since my last entry I have battled with demons and overcame them, to be more precise they were demons in the video game “Hades”, winner of last years “game of the year” award. It was highly addictive and I kept trying to put it down but continued until I achieved the platinum trophy. I was so addicted that after returning from work I was playing the game for upto 5 hours before going to sleep. I’ll say this, I did enjoy the game but as it became easier, I think I may have enjoyed it less, it was certainly a chore by the end. I purchased the game for £16 and sold it to CEX for £12, a great exchange. As for Assassin’s Creed, after eBay and postage fees, I’m left with around £18, around a £6 loss.

At work, my manager suggested I move onto a 4 on/4 off shift pattern and take on some more responsibilities now that they’re hiring a new person on the day shift to pretty much do my current job. I think they’re just trying to get rid of me but are too nice to pull the trigger. This occurred last week and there’s been no follow up since then so I think plans have fallen through. I have 12 days worth of holidays remaining and I’ve booked off another week towards the end of the month. It’s the week that the video game “Lost Judgment” is releasing.

My father is pushing me into taking driving lessons again, he even found a driving instructor. It’s a local one, I’m sure I’ll get scammed, or he will, since he’s paying.

After having watched a leftist YouTuber, I fear I may have ADHD, this would explain why I need to listen to YouTube videos while playing video games amongst other things.

My dad’s mother is unwell, there is concern she may die and my father is considering flying out to Pakistan but he hasn’t mentioned it recently so maybe she’s better now. My mother’s uncle died, my mother keeps pestering me to go visit my grandmother to “pay my respects”, I have declined for the usual reasons, I don’t speak the same language as my grandmother and while we were close when I was child I no longer feel that connection though that’s not true for her, my mother tells me often that my grandmother is asking after me. I do feel guilt, actually no, that’s a white emotion, I feel shame.