I got 7 hours of sleep, this has been the norm during night shifts, too much light streams in and I’m not able to sleep after around 3pm.
I played some “The Last of Us 2” before starting my shift. I was me, the big guy and the WoW woman. The WoW woman went offline regularly, being lazy as usual.
My diet is still struggling, I had two HUEL shakes and some lentil curry along with a packet of crisps.
Between blog entries I also had 2 Krispy Cream donuts and lentil curry.
I woke up around 7am and started the day right with a HUEL shake. I played some “The Last of Us 2” and then my mother offered me food, I accepted (fish and chips). I then went back to the game and then my mother offered me more food (donner).
The diet has not been ruined, I think in terms of calories I broke even.
I took a midday nap because I had to work tonight. I did something massively productive. I applied for a flat, I sent over the holding deposit. The estate agent was the same as the previous flat I almost secured before it was “withdrawn by the landlord”, the flat I’m applying for is similar but slightly larger and so slightly more expensive.
My sister has texted me to say Krispy Cream donuts are downstairs, can’t remember the last time we spoke. Perhaps ruining my diet is a price worth paying for starting to mend our relationship.
Since my birthday I have dedicated myself to playing “The Last of Us 2”. It’s a lengthy game and feels like a TV show so I have had to take regular breaks. I’m satisfied with the quality of the story so far. It looks like an easy platinum so will be doing an additional playthrough.
My HUEL diet is going poorly, I have treated myself to a burger and various snacks over the last few days. There’s no reason I can’t commit to 3 HUEL shakes (1200 calories). Maybe next time I should just take a look in the mirror when I get cravings. I know the only reason I want junk food so bad is the rush of endorphins, I love stuffing my face even if I hate myself afterwards.
The only exercise was a trip to ALDI but I turned away when I saw the queue. It has been very hot the last few days, I’m sweating heavily, going outside is painful.
I will post daily with weight updates from now on.
Since my last entry I spent a significant amount of time playing Assassin’s Creed: Odyssey, it would be all that I did each day, even when working, I would play the game during the entire shift. I have put in a total of 80 hours into the game.
My first shift of the period saw me working with the big guy and taxidermy woman, I had some good conversations over chat, I discussed diets with the big guys, he’s lost 6 pounds using the “one meal a day” method. The bad news is that he still seems dead set on leaving at the end of the month. I decided it was time to request that I change my shift pattern again and ask that I take his. The taxidermy woman knows I’ve been butting heads with the koreaboo and WoW woman so has also asked our manager if we can swap shifts. I appreciate that she was honest with me about this.
On the second shift it was just me and the koreaboo, it was a Sunday, so very quiet, yet he still somehow managed screw up. He kicked me in the teeth at the end of the shift by asking if I had any PC issues, he asked this because he was secretly going to do the “handover report”, he shouldn’t be doing this as I’ve been here longer but he wants to feel important, I guess. I didn’t go all out and completely call him out but I will put him in his place next time as I’m also going to need to ask my former manager how to do the handover report.
I did get some revenge the next day, my former manager had booked a holiday and I said I was sick so it was just the koreaboo and WoW woman, it was a Monday so busy, they were absolutely swamped and finally had to do some work for once. I did my podcast the following night and I believe the following day also so them being run a little ragged. I did my podcast and it was a success as always, got raided by Swedish people at the end.
The day after was my birthday, perhaps the best birthday I’ve ever had. It started with me receiving a birthday card from my mother, she wrote a funny joke about me refusing cake and always saying I’m on a diet. I then got the platinum trophy on Assassin’s Creed: Odyssey, I’m now done with the game. I proceeded to check my emails and was notified I received a pay rise at work. The big guy contacted me over Whatsapp to say he has secured his job back (we spoke the previous day where he thanked me for encouraging him to stay, I subsequently wrote a follow up email saying I don’t want to swap shifts).
I later went to collect the post and found 3 birthday cards from my friends from /britfeel/, I’ve posted pictures of the cards and gifts below, they were all wonderful and meant the world, this is the first time I’ve ever received birthday cards or gifts from friends. My mother made my favourite meal, though she used lamb instead of chicken, we then watched an episode of “Rick & Morty” and “RuPaul’s Drag Race”, my mother said she felt uncomfortable at first but by the end decided to like the show, I feel this is major progress. Before retreating to my bedroom, we also listened to “Run to the Hills” by Iron Maiden and discussed if the song was racist.
I didn’t know that such a perfect day was possible, it could have been better but I can’t complain as so many good things happened all at once.
Since my last update, I have had 3 more shifts at work, all of them weren’t terrible. I spoke to my manager a fair bit over a chat, perhaps too much, I prefer slower conversations rather than them being constant. The most interesting topic of discussion was politics.
My attention has been stolen by another video game, this time it is “Assassin’s Creed: Odyssey”, it’s clearly a very long game and it’s where all my time is going at the moment, it may be over a week before I’m done with it. I do not recommend this game.
I have bought HUEL and intend to replace most meals with it so I lose weight.
My “podcast” is continuing to do well, episodes are constantly running for 4 hours and viewership is high. The bad news is that I was too mean to a co-host and they have disappeared, I am attempting to apologise to them but they have removed me from their friends list.
I haven’t left the house at all in over a week.
Since completing Final Fantasy 7 I’ve been directionless. I tried reading Sapiens, I mostly re-read parts as I wasn’t sure where I was up to. I stopped at chapter 7.
As I usually do during these times, I spent a lot of time online searching for things to buy, I bought another 3 issues for £3 deal for a video game magazine called EDGE. My father wanted a phone so I picked up a used Samsung Galaxy S9+. I even paid for it myself, £280. I was disgusted when I later heard my sister complaining about the car my dad bought her, saying it needed repairs, she’s an adult, why can’t see resolve the issue herself.
Surprisingly my shift at work went well, it was just me and the taxidermy woman, I thought she’d be mad at me but every was normal, I was perhaps even shown more consideration than usual.
I have over 70 guys on KIK who have messaged me, I can’t keep up and it’s difficult showing enthusiasm when I know we likely can’t meet up during lockdown.
I tried finding a flat again, there’s not much action due to it only recently becoming legal to rent again. I messaged two estate agents, one told me that the flat had gone despite only being listed for about 24 hours and the other has not responded. I’m looking at places in Manchester now.
I need to chase my E supplier.
My workplace has been rocked by the big guy suddenly quitting, I was informed of this by the taxidermy woman. Fortunately I have the big guy on Whatsapp so I messaged him, he has been sick of the place for a while, I thought I’d convinced him to stay but it got too much, management was able to convince him to work his notice period, though only 2 shifts per week over the next month rather than 4. This is disastrous, he’s the only person here who I really get along with and who likes me. I’m also concerned for his sake, it will be hard to find work in the current climate.
The following night I was all alone due to my manager calling in sick and the big guy agreeing to work different shifts. It was pretty chilled out, I spent most of my time playing Final Fantasy 7 REMAKE, I did the same the following two nights where I was joined on shift by WoW woman, Koreaboo and my manager. It did not go well, the WoW woman was being her usual lazy self, I complained and all the while the Koreaboo was pecking my head with questions, I answered them even though I should have known better to criticise his best pal. I decided to get ahead of it and tell her that I was annoyed at her taking actions to avoid doing any work/pushing more work onto me. She was pissed, we didn’t speak the following shift. I was glad for the silence, it gave me more time to focus on Final Fantasy.
Final Fantasy had really taken over my life, I spent almost every waking hour playing it the following two days, I finally finished it on hard mode, time for something new now. I plan to finish reading Sapiens.
I also need to catch up on all the guys messaging me on KIK, I’ve ignored them over the last week.
I made another likely poor decision tonight, the big guy messaged me over Whatsapp and in discussion I divulged the entirely of my suspicions and research on the Koreaboo. If he tells anyone, I’m screwed, I will come across insane.
The last week has been quite the roller-coaster, is something I’d like to say but they haven’t. My first two shifts at work were fine, I bonded with the big guy some more. He felt unwell so I told him to just try to sleep for an hour while I, alone, covered the fort. I am not a hateful person, as long as I am shown basic human dignity, I will repay it tenfold.
The following two shifts were the ones with the the WoW woman and Koreaboo, the first night we didn’t talk at all the following night the Koreaboo asked how I was, I ignored him, a short while later the WoW woman sent me a message. She asked more direct questions, so I replied. It was a short reply, she then responded at length. I am sure they are just screwing with me, I’m happy to pretend they don’t exist and enjoy my shifts in solitude.
The next 4 days all involved playing Final Fantasy 7. I’ve clocked in around 50 hours so far, it’s not a particularly great game and I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. The only breaks I took from the game were to charge my controller.
Human Garbage 