I can finally understand why my actions caused misery and a myriad of other emotions to my victims. I was thoughtless and my behaviour cruel and pathetic. I deeply regret what I have done and it pains to imagine what they must have gone through.
Fuck the uni though.
I was also wrong to hold negative opinions of people at work, they are all great. Such friendly and patient people. I had to work with one of the newer Polish girls today for a short while, she was nice. Backs up that theory about it being silly to be mad at someone for being cold towards you when you make no effort either.
My roommate also deserves an apology, it’s tough finding a room to rent, he thought I was a cool guy based off first impressions. There are worse people out there compared to him. I will try asking him if I can extend the lease, this whole search is causing me stress.
On an unrelated note, I am absolutely certain now I am completely heterosexual and interested in regular relations with females, I was only into various fetishes because of seclusion.