Work was great. Just like all weekends. Hit my target during the first half of my shift then openly sit at my desk watching whatever takes me fancy for the remainder of my time while keeping an eye on the urgent queries. A few more people than usual were in today, I guess I’m not trusted with anything anymore. I had some decent interactions with football fan (the name I’ve decided on for the guy who sits a couple of rows behind me but has interacted with me a few times).
On the way back home, I took the train. Whilst sitting down I noticed the train conducted, a paki, coming around to check everyones tickets. He asked to see mine, I moved to show him but he looked away to speak to someone else. He then asked me again. I was about to present my ticket again but I noticed he was looking away again. So I responded by shouting “oi!”. He looked at me now. I explained what he had done and then pushed my ticket towards him, asking if he could see it.
He then went back to talking to a group of yobs. When he was done, he told me sternly in his paki accent “you might speak like that at home but not here, learn to behave” or something along those lines. I then responded by advising him to learn English. There were groans in the carriage. He threatened to throw me off the train, I asked why there were so many people who were obviously from abroad and that all the guards at the turnstiles at my local station were all from abroad, “there’s something going on”. A white guy in front of my turned to argue but gave up when he saw I was a paki. Also heard one of yobs saying “is it a him or a her?”. The conductor repeated his threat and I went back to playing Candy Crush.
Clearly I have a problem, the things I said are not normal. It felt great at first though, I feel like I can breath again when I shout and I know if I don’t stand up for myself I’ll torture myself over it for weeks. Might see my GP.
The conductor was recalling his story to a while colleague on my way out, he was lying though, claiming I said “you people are stealing all our jobs”.
Ate rice at home. Controlling my eating is easier now that I have my laptop to stave off boredom. Bought a 4chan pass.